Dark side of the Sun

Ever spend time somewhere, totally love the place, believe in it completely, and then find yourself not feeling at all like you belong?
I was sitting in the club in sl a few days ago, and the little voice in my head -might have been Harvey not sure- screamed "What am I doing here?" I just no longer felt like I belonged there. That tends to happen with me in real life all the time, after about 3 months hanging out in a place I look around and realize I dont fit.
I fear that I never will fit anywhere, at anytime, with anyone. I don't think at times I am meant to be here.
I have had more then one near death moment in my life, and I just don't see how many more times I can cheat death. Without getting into a sappy too long blog, I will just say that.
Well, that little voice was screaming again in my head just a few minutes ago. I had to get up out of the virtual club and go to my virtual office. One person in the chat noticed, and it took quite a while for them to.
Does this mean anything?
Just that I feel like I am sitting on the dark side of the Sun.

{Harvey was a reference to the tv show FARSCAPE}