Friday, February 29, 2008

Feeling the pressure

Let's face it some of us are just not meant to play the part of the Pop-Tart.
The last few days the pressure seems to be on for me to. Sure buying the outfits, getting all done up makes me feel sexy for the time it takes. But once the photos are done and I am in the stage of seeing them on my sites I feel just so unsexy and even ridiculous.
I had taken one of the old photos we did for the company website and added a poem over it in red having decided I wanted to spice up my profile on the goth site I hang out on. One person asked what the poem said, and that is my buddy. Yes I am not denying that I got more hits in that few hours it was up. But I felt weird about it given most of the people on that site are under 25. Why did I do it? Because I was the only one in clothes in my profile photo. I ended up taking it down and putting up one of me in the mudmask at the Lush party. I got no hits at all. That made me feel even less about myself. So back to the old photo gallery where I pulled up one from the same photoshoot as the first one was from, ran it through a paint program and have it up now (the one the last blog was about)
Today got me thinking I would get gussied up and have a few more done. I am sitting here now because half way through getting ready I just felt ugly and silly.

So my life is all wrong

I was working with a new program, and tried to send a photo to my friends' email straight from the program. I got a page come up suddenly saying it was sent to the host network.
I am on a community network. So now some strange person will have my photo popping up and they will have a link to my computer and everything.
Life is a crap box for me and I seem to be nose deep in it.
Hopefully they will just think it is spam and junk it.
I guess it just goes to prove you shouldn't be working at 2 am on things.

Sunday, February 24, 2008


Congrats to Viva-Loco Homegirl Esq. she had a healthy baby girl this morning!

Saturday, February 23, 2008

TNA thoughts and birthday wishes

Happy Birthday Ninja! My sister is 26 today.
Happy Be-lated Birthday Setla. I know it was last week sorry I missed it.

My thoughts for TNA Impact for the weeks of Feb 14 and 21

*AJ Styles and Karren Angle getting married....DUMB!

*Abyss removing the mask and walking out.....It was needed, the gimmick could only go on for so long. Can't wait to see how they handle his direction now.

*Mixing car racing with wrestling.....Been done before with WCW (anyone else remember Vampiro being put on a car in paint?) And having the MotorCityMachine Guns! there for the interview was cool. I had to blink when I heard Alex Shelley being serious for a change when he spoke about how one wrong move in wrestling not only can cost the match it could break your neck.

*Team 3D having to hit a smaller weight....As comical as Bubba-Ray was this is a good thing. When anyone gets too large they are risking their health.

*The X-Division Party.....Having Jay Lethal step out of the Black Machismo character after almost a year of being in it is refreshing. Not too sure just what they are doing with that storyline between Lethal and Sonjay Dutt. Is Dutt jealous of Lethal or is he jealous of So-Cal Val?

*Eric Young being scared....He's too cute in this role. You believe completely that he is like a little kid and I keep waiting for him to say "Polkaroo was here and I missed him again?" (Ontario people will get that joke)

Friday, February 22, 2008

Some People eh?

This was left for me on my company website's forum


Feb 22, 08 - 11:11 AM

Have you people no disgust for your selfs. To play vampire like it is some kind of game. Half of you couldn't handel living for a centry. None of you could handle being alone for three thousand four hundred sixty two days. You wouldn't even be worth turning. You would make a better goul or what ever your gen calls them these days. I am a truely porwerful vampire and I'm very angered by the way your kind has treated my people and then turn around in three generations and want to us. I demand respect and I will recieve it for I come for revenge for the nmae of the vampire. I will see you burn in the deepest pits of hell.
Harley Lilith Noir

Feb 22nd, 2008 - 11:45 AM
Re: Disgust

You go ahead and be disgusted. We are a movie company, not a role play game. We make movies and music videos. And real vampires are born not turned. We have one member that is an Otherkin, and they have no problems with us.
Thanks for stopping in!

and you see this is my answer. Dude, if you feel the need to be flinging shit in my house, you better be wearing a bullet proof vest.

Tarot Card Quiz

You are The Tower

Ambition, fighting, war, courage. Destruction, danger, fall, ruin.

The Tower represents war, destruction, but also spiritual renewal. Plans are disrupted. Your views and ideas will change as a result.

The Tower is a card about war, a war between the structures of lies and the lightning flash of truth. The Tower stands for "false concepts and institutions that we take for real." You have been shaken up; blinded by a shocking revelation. It sometimes takes that to see a truth that one refuses to see. Or to bring down beliefs that are so well constructed. What's most important to remember is that the tearing down of this structure, however painful, makes room for something new to be built.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Whine Bitch Moan GRRRRR

Yeap there is a guy making my brain spin to the point I think I will do a full on exorcist twist.
Ninja said the other day "maybe he just doesn't know you have a thing for him. Men can be stupid". Well maybe he doesn't.? And maybe he does and just is ignoring the idea? Who knows?
Mercury went direct yesterday after 4 months of being in a retro motion. This means alot of communication troubles will clear up.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Andrew and the Aluminumsidings!

The band is in talks of getting back together!
That is right! You read it here first. Well, of course you did, where else would you read it? The band was the brainchild of E. and myself back a million years ago in high school. She was guitar, I was lead and well we sucked, but many many lifetimes later we suck less and it might be the right time to regroup.
In the immortal words of Tracii Guns "What do you mean you don't dig us? How could you not dig us? We dig us."

Friday, February 15, 2008


Why am I happy to be doing housework? Because after a year....yes a year....of having to go out to do laundry the landlore finally bought a new washer and dryer....yes a year.

Monday, February 11, 2008

The Divorce Sweater

On the DVD commentary for Jane Austen Book Club they talk about the costume choices for each character, and one that gets alot of mention is the sweater the character Sylvia is wearing through most of it. They called it the "divorce sweater".
It got me like a ton of bricks to the skull, cause I have a divorce sweater that I have been wearing for the last few years. Though, I have never been divorced, I have been dumped. We do seem to gravitate to an item of clothing that is the same as the security blanket alot of us had as a child. The sweater or whatever the item might be that we wear all the time when going through a time of depression.
Did I get rid of my divorce sweater? I'll let you know ......

Saturday, February 9, 2008

TNA for Feb 7 2008

Just a few thoughts on this week's show.

* the Rock n Rave Infection ....there is a cream for that. Please I am begging you to gag them!

* the feud that seems to be boiling between Samoa Joe and Matt Morgan, let it happen already.

* Shark Boy finally is getting the spotlight he deserves.

* I can't wait for Traci Brooks to beat the snot out of Payton Banks!

* Christian Cage needs the championship belt back around his waist.

* Judas Mesias needs to find his footing. When he was brought in they promoted him as an unstoppable creature, but the last few times I have seen him in the ring he has been nothing but fodder. If they are going to show him as being that weak they need to really push him towards the fans more favourably.

When to Delete

So I had been a member of a gothic website, and really didn't like the way it was. I had joined it last summer for the "database" and once I got there realized it wasn't what it was advertised as. So why did I stay for so long? Coward I suppose. I had stopped going to it two months ago, just left my profile up. Today I got an email saying my password had been reissued...odd I thought. So I logged in and seemed my profile had been hacked or an attempt to hack it. Why? I am boring as hell and no one of specialness. I thought why even keep it, so deleted the whole damned thing. Is that going to mess up other people's threads and profiles? Do I care?

Friday, February 8, 2008

What would Jane do?

The movie version of The Jane Austen Book Club was released this week on dvd in Canada. I have to say I loved every second of it. One movie that stayed very true to the novel and was almost like a primer for Jane Austen's works. The story takes place over the course of 6 months with each month focusing on one Jane Austen book and the lives of the people reading them. Each of the 6 main characters are fashioned after the main people in all the Austen novels. If you have not seen this yet do so.
The bonus features include a small bio of Jane Austen by members of the Jane Austen Society.

Monday, February 4, 2008

TNA and Other stuff

Going to start by saying finally iTunes has listened to what people really want....ICP/Twiztid/Dark Lotus and TNA!

You can find now Hatchet History as well as Cryptic Collection One on the Canadian iTunes, as well as TNA Impact shows for download on the Canadian iTunes. Bout time!

Not really a recap for Impact in this post as I haven't covered anything in two months, but just a few notes on what I am thinking......

1) I get that ODB is the number one contender because of fans support, cool, and that she seems the strongest to met Kong, but I feel the Voodoo Queen is a better wrestler and should be the number one contender.

2) Why are you dragging the tag team title change on so damn long? Let the MotorCity Machine Guns have the titles already! Will make the feud with Team 3D mean more in the end.

3)When and Why did A.J. Styles become so dumb? Why Why Why?

Okay that is about all that is on my mind right now in regards to Impact. Till Next Time....

Saturday, February 2, 2008


Blessed Imbloc for those who celebrate it.

Happy Birthday to Devs if he is out there reading this!

I got a very odd invitation through Facebook last week. I did not accept it because it was just too...icky. Viva-Loco Homegirl Esq 's sister sent it to me. Now you remember me talking way back months ago about VLHE being pregnant if you have been following my blogs, well the invite was to a Birthing Party. yeah, you read right, a Birthing Party. Not a baby shower, or anything like that but a party when she goes into labor. I just don't get it? Why? Let me tell you why neither myself or Ninja are going.....1) false labor
2) labor that might be longer then 24 hours
3) don't want to sit around with her family
4) just crazy
5) we haven't talked in 4 months
I just don't understand why you would want a group of people sitting around the room while you are giving birth if they are not medical personal? Makes no sense.
I wish you luck and love with the whole thing, but I just wont' be there when it happens.


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