if I can handle this!
Anyone who has read much of my blogs know that not only did I survive a horrid car accident Sept 1 2006, which broke 60% of my upper body, but you know that I have Osteogenesis Imperfecta Type 1.
Now, Ninja also has it and she is very well able to handle Pilates and Yoga no troubles.
I was having troubles just now with the first lesson of the Tai Chi. My ribs aching and ankle swollen.
The journey I am determined to embark on with the Yoga/BellyDance may well be more then my body can handle.
Though I must say just from the first lesson today my energy feels better. My Solar Plexus are my main problem Chakra at the moment and could be too why I am buying more yellow outfits.
Monday, July 21, 2008
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Belly Dance
It's seductive, it's erotic, it's classic and it's what I plan to do.
I have always loved the look of Belly Dancing, and was kinda scared to try it for fearing looking like a female version of Jabba the Hut in a lowrise skirt. But if we don't face our fears we will never get anywhere in this plane of existence.
So I searched online and found myself on one very cool website World Dance New York
With every type of belly dancing there is and there's alot. So I watched the previews, and ordered myself two dvds .
I also went out to the store and picked up a Tai-Chi dvd, a belly dancing cd and a small "Mini Belly Dancing Kit".
As well as a yoga mat and knee pads. Yes; as I was informed that yoga movements are a major part of belly dancing.
Jabba the Hut be damned, this is one goal I have set that I have wanted for a very long time.
I have always loved the look of Belly Dancing, and was kinda scared to try it for fearing looking like a female version of Jabba the Hut in a lowrise skirt. But if we don't face our fears we will never get anywhere in this plane of existence.
So I searched online and found myself on one very cool website World Dance New York
With every type of belly dancing there is and there's alot. So I watched the previews, and ordered myself two dvds .
I also went out to the store and picked up a Tai-Chi dvd, a belly dancing cd and a small "Mini Belly Dancing Kit".
As well as a yoga mat and knee pads. Yes; as I was informed that yoga movements are a major part of belly dancing.
Jabba the Hut be damned, this is one goal I have set that I have wanted for a very long time.
Friday, July 18, 2008
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Flirting?
Seems I don't know how.
Studies say that when you flirt with someone with the intent to catch a mate you should always pick someone with the same level of attractiveness as yourself. but I don't want an ugly man!
And you should know when to pick someone to flirt with for the sake of flirting and for mate finding. there's a difference?
And you should only flirt with someone who will be interested in you. but if I don't flirt with him how am I going to know if he's interested ?
When it comes down to it, I am a shy girl. A shy girl who has both waited around for a guy to tempt me (which got me nowhere at all) and tried to tempt men (which also got me nowhere at all) Even when I come across as hotsauce { loud, abrasive, steaming} I am still a shy girl at the core. I have been called too wholesome by the Trainwreck that was in my life few years ago; and too Jane Austen for my own good by male friends.
So then where is the middle ground? We read in articles both in magazines and on the internet to be willing to make the first move and not be afraid of what society will think of us. Okay, done that and gotten nothing. Well, not nothing; I have gotten laughed at by a few men and even caused one to puke on his shoes.
Not the best ego booster.
These same magazines and internet articles then turn around and tell us to wait for the man to make the first move because they need to feel like they are in control of things. I am still waiting for that manly-man to introduce himself to me. Waiting Waiting Waiting....
For some reason, it seems to that most of these how to flirt manuals on the net these days are written by teenaged girls. How is it that a 14 year old in the middle of Iowa is better at the art of seduction then a middle aged woman? I have no clue but seems she's able to get a date for the weekend and I am stuck sitting around watching episodes of Lipstick Jungle.
Studies say that when you flirt with someone with the intent to catch a mate you should always pick someone with the same level of attractiveness as yourself. but I don't want an ugly man!
And you should know when to pick someone to flirt with for the sake of flirting and for mate finding. there's a difference?
And you should only flirt with someone who will be interested in you. but if I don't flirt with him how am I going to know if he's interested ?
When it comes down to it, I am a shy girl. A shy girl who has both waited around for a guy to tempt me (which got me nowhere at all) and tried to tempt men (which also got me nowhere at all) Even when I come across as hotsauce { loud, abrasive, steaming} I am still a shy girl at the core. I have been called too wholesome by the Trainwreck that was in my life few years ago; and too Jane Austen for my own good by male friends.
So then where is the middle ground? We read in articles both in magazines and on the internet to be willing to make the first move and not be afraid of what society will think of us. Okay, done that and gotten nothing. Well, not nothing; I have gotten laughed at by a few men and even caused one to puke on his shoes.
Not the best ego booster.
These same magazines and internet articles then turn around and tell us to wait for the man to make the first move because they need to feel like they are in control of things. I am still waiting for that manly-man to introduce himself to me. Waiting Waiting Waiting....
For some reason, it seems to that most of these how to flirt manuals on the net these days are written by teenaged girls. How is it that a 14 year old in the middle of Iowa is better at the art of seduction then a middle aged woman? I have no clue but seems she's able to get a date for the weekend and I am stuck sitting around watching episodes of Lipstick Jungle.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
stupid!
Spent 2 hours talking to "StandUpGuy" night before last, and had made plans with him for last night. Guess what, he stood me up again. God Damn It!
This time he didn't even call to say he wasn't coming over.
The worst part is that we have been in the same social circle for 26 years, and I have never known him to be this... crude.
Is it just me? Am I a human magnet for bad dates? (or in this case bad get togethers)
In one episode of SATC the question is put out there "Is it simply because my dad wasn't around and therefore I am screwed up about men?" {episode 65 'A Vogue Idea'}
This question seems to be sticking in my mind as of late, and I have no idea if it is the proper thought pattern.
They say that if everything goes to hell in relationships and you are the only common factor then you are the problem. Okay, fine it's me. No really if I am my own problem then how to I fix me?
This time he didn't even call to say he wasn't coming over.
The worst part is that we have been in the same social circle for 26 years, and I have never known him to be this... crude.
Is it just me? Am I a human magnet for bad dates? (or in this case bad get togethers)
In one episode of SATC the question is put out there "Is it simply because my dad wasn't around and therefore I am screwed up about men?" {episode 65 'A Vogue Idea'}
This question seems to be sticking in my mind as of late, and I have no idea if it is the proper thought pattern.
They say that if everything goes to hell in relationships and you are the only common factor then you are the problem. Okay, fine it's me. No really if I am my own problem then how to I fix me?
Saturday, July 12, 2008
When stand up guys aren't so standup
I made plans middle of the week with a buddy from school who I haven't seen in ages. Everything went well, we talked for an hour on the phone joking with each other and there were moments when he said things that put ideas in my head.
I actually was starting to really look forward to seeing him. I was all dressed and ready to go meet up with him when he canceled. He had a fairly reasonable excuse not to met me; but still it seemed alittle ....rehearsed.
That was middle of the week, here it is Saturday night and I haven't heard anything else from him.
So when do you know if that "stand up guy" is really the real deal or just standing you up?
Did I read his tone wrong the night we made plans, or did he change his mind? Did he think I had more devious intentions then he thought and got repulsed?
Talk about being confused; I was rejected by someone who I am not even sure I am sexually attracted to, and I feel like I have just had my last request infront of the death squad denied.
I actually was starting to really look forward to seeing him. I was all dressed and ready to go meet up with him when he canceled. He had a fairly reasonable excuse not to met me; but still it seemed alittle ....rehearsed.
That was middle of the week, here it is Saturday night and I haven't heard anything else from him.
So when do you know if that "stand up guy" is really the real deal or just standing you up?
Did I read his tone wrong the night we made plans, or did he change his mind? Did he think I had more devious intentions then he thought and got repulsed?
Talk about being confused; I was rejected by someone who I am not even sure I am sexually attracted to, and I feel like I have just had my last request infront of the death squad denied.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Re-write Draft 1
I really hate this part of the writing process. The fact when you have to sit down and face the first re-write of the next draft.
The part where you start to change character names, move scenes around, flesh out the smaller characters.
I wrote a semi-bio/semi-fiction back in 1998. I finished the story ...or so I had thought. Then in 2004 I gave it a satisfactory ending, only to have my computer die before I could back it up. Brilliant eh?
I didn't touch the story again depressed at the thought of not being able to recreate that great ending I had spent days at.
Till now.
So I pulled the story out the other week, for whatever reason it was tugging at me. And giving it a second draft have created almost a completely different story.
The fact that I could throw out 90% of the original story without care; does that mean I have become a better writer or just a colder one?
The part where you start to change character names, move scenes around, flesh out the smaller characters.
I wrote a semi-bio/semi-fiction back in 1998. I finished the story ...or so I had thought. Then in 2004 I gave it a satisfactory ending, only to have my computer die before I could back it up. Brilliant eh?
I didn't touch the story again depressed at the thought of not being able to recreate that great ending I had spent days at.
Till now.
So I pulled the story out the other week, for whatever reason it was tugging at me. And giving it a second draft have created almost a completely different story.
The fact that I could throw out 90% of the original story without care; does that mean I have become a better writer or just a colder one?
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