Andrew and the Aluminumsidings

What I learned from Sex and the City Volume 4

2010-05-18T11:38:00.000-04:00

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I was watching season 6 of SATC last night, the episode called Perfect Present (commonly known as the double finger episode) where Carrie is having a bad reaction to Berger's bad reaction to a call from his ex.

This episode is all about the baggage we carry with us from past relationships. There is a line where Carrie says "I was hoping not to have the ex talk"

I was thinking as I sipped my java watching the show, that anyone reading this blog has already been given my ex talk, as all my baggage is here in type.

THAT'S WHEN IT HIT ME!

I started this blog right after my last break up. This blog is my dealing with my baggage. Or "Biggage" as Carrie calls it in the episode.

I fully believe that everything happens for a reason to whom it happens when it happens.

It's been 3 years. This blog has been Fun, Frealed up and Fabulous. But it's time to close the door on my EX files.

I will still be checking this for any stray comments, and using it as archives linking it from my NEW BLOG to old posts.

I'd be remissed if I didn't add a little something to my favourite Spudguns right now though.

Now, I know Mr Shelley's birthday is this weekend so I'm closing this blog out with a birthday shout out to him.

Happy Birthday Mr. Shelley

Now come join me on my new phase in life and remember Life should be filled with Food Laughter and Bad Camera Work always

-Ardeth Blood

My Thoughts on TNA Impact for May 13th 2010

2010-05-14T11:32:00.000-04:00

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Seems iTunes Canada loves me again this week, as last night's episode was available this morning for download. At this point though they have not gotten the May 3rd episode. Their listing jumps from April 26th to May 13th 2010 and for anyone who wants to know how long it takes to do a review, I started at 7:30am.

Now I know the episodes have titles just like Buffy/Angel/Forever Knight/Sex and the City but I use the air dates cause 1) most people search online by air dates and 2) dude, most times your titles suck. (it's good to be back isn't it)
To the audience member screaming alone, you know why your "Bishoff sucks" chant didn't work for ya, because it's better to play in a group then play with yourself. That and the faster we let Bishoff do what he's going to do the faster we get past the filler and on to the show... I love the smell of coffee and sarcasm in the morning, goes so well with my complexion.

AJ AJ AJ... we've talked about the cufflinks in the ears... dude, too big and you know I've never been one for diamonds I like pearls. Pearls are nice and less... sparkly. Men should wear Onyx or Jet.
Okay you know what, just cause I'm in a good mood this morning, I will actually mention Jeff Hardy just this once, but um dude, please stop with the dry humping entrance.

Knock Outs match Wilde vs Tara... Tara won with a kick as Wilde was going for a cross body.

Someone cue the garlic juice... for the tears that what's her handle was trying to cry... Universal Studios for freals sake, you would think you had some better acting .... nice set up though for the storyline.

Kendrick vs Douglas Williams. Kendrick still hasn't gotten decent theme music, dude you need to pencil that in okay... Williams made a speech about it being non-title as Kendrick jumped him in the corner with a series of forearms to the back. Williams fought back with a hard push then a forearm of his own rocking Kendrick. Tossing Kendrick then to the far corner, running full steam at him. Williams then followed with a snapmare but that only got him a two count. Kendrick then started to throw hard punches at him before going off the ropes but was stopped cold by a shoulder block. Williams then used a drop knee to get the slight advantage over Kendrick, but Kendrick came back at him with a few kicks. Kendrick then off the ropes with a flying forearm/crossbody combo but only got a near fall. Williams then rolled out of the ring, and pulled Kendrick off his feet slamming his knee into the ring apron. Back in the center of the ring, and Williams slapped on a half Boston crab. Kaz then came to the ring to collect his belt, which was just enough distraction to let Kendrick roll up on Williams for the win.

Generation Me vs Matt Morgan the evil druid... suppose I can't call him that anymore since he dropped the robe... in a handicap match. Max and Jeremy jumped him as he was entering the ring. No good, he tossed them off like children and then delivered a double running clothesline that sent them flying. Morgan then grabbed the blonde one and gave him a hard vertical slam before going after the brunette with a nasty running boot to the face. Still like to know what is it with wrestlers and long greasy hair? He then grabbed the microphone and blah blah blahed for a bit before grabbing the blonde one tossing him out of the ring and Samoa Joe came out to the ring giving Morgan a muscle buster. Then Nash and his crew came down to the ring, cashing in the fest or fired tag belts case.

Rob Terry vs Abyss. or you know not cause Abyss was being arrested. Snooze. Bored Now.
Okay here's the thing with Orlando Jordan, no one is debating your talent. We are debating your gimmick. Dude, it blows goat backwards. All puns intended. Just drop the gimmick and wrestle.
Tomko came to the ring for a match then with Jordan. I happen to like Tomko. He picked up Jordan slamming him into the corner then delivered a nice spinebuster. Jordan countered with a double leg take down, then proceeded to deliver a few fists to the jaw. Both back to their feet, Tomko moved out of the way as Jordan went face first into the turnbuckle. Tomko then with a lovely powerful over head toss. Jordan then shoved Tomko into to the corner and followed up with a drop kick. He continued then to stomp on Tomko, getting him on the second rope for a rear chin lock. Jordan then with a short snap on Tomko before a knee to the back. He continued to work on the neck and back of Tomko with another chinlock. Tomko back to his feet powered out with an elbow. Jordan leap frogged over Tomko but he got it with an extreme short clothesline from Tomko. Jordan then countered with a backbreaker. Jordan followed with a guillotine sleeper for the win.

Knock Outs match .... Sarita vs Tara in a revenge match....Tara won with a cheap shot.

RVD vs Hardy vs A.J. Styles... non title... you all know I am not a fan of either RVD or Hardy, just do not like watching them at all. So.... but Styles goofing around with the dude at ringside was funny, very funny. And Styles got the pin with the ropes... er um I mean I saw nothing but a win.
Because of the interruption of Mr. Anderson on Hardy, they had a small brawl at the end of the show.

OOOOHHHH does this mean Nash will be here tomorrow with the tag belts for the GNW event

And the MotorCityMachine Guns! in a four way tag match. Dude, I hate trying to call matches like this. You know, maybe if you guys didn't freal around at the start of the show with so much filler, you could have had two separate matches for the tag division. vs Team 3D vs Ink Inc vs Beer Money Inc.

Alex Shelley and James Storm started off. Okay Mr. Shelley what colour are your tights now? One camera has them looking blue and orange, one camera has them looking purple and an off orange. Someone needs to check the white balance on the cameras seriously.

They started with a collar tie up, Storm pushing Shelley into the corner. Shelley came back with a series of forearms to the face getting himself out of the corner. Yay! Storm then tossed him into the ropes but Shelley went to the mat for a slip through and roll away. Chris Sabin tagged in grabbing Storm and throwing him out of the ring. The Guns! then delivered double mule kicks to Robert Roode as he came into the ring. Beauty! They then did their trademark suicide dive (Sabin diving through the ropes Shelley holding them) which is impossible to get a screen capture of I have to say. Did get a screen capture of Mr. Shelley celebrating the move. Sabin then rolled Storm back into the ring, but only got a two count. Damn it. Storm fought back with a thumb to the eye and just tossing Sabin into the corner. Devon then blindtagged himself in, as Roode tagged in. Roode came at him with a punch but it got him nowhere. Devon then took control with a series of punches. They then traded blows for a moment. Hang on, are your tights half blue and half purple? Roode took control with a knee to the gut, before Devon used a scoop slam/power slam for a near fall, Shelley in for a save with what I think was a ping to the temple. Brother Ray then tagged in, and they used a double team move on Roode. Shanon Moore blindtagged himself in when Ray got too close to the rope, flying over him in a crossbody to land on Roode, only got a two count. Mr. Shelley what the hoovers was that you crossing yourself dude... I didn't realize there were vampires in the ImpactZone that day. It looked like Moore had control of the issue, but Roode got him with a wristlock then a kick to the gut sending Moore into the corner then out of the ring. Storm continued to do a beat down on Moore outside of the ring. Back in the ring, and Roode stompping on Moore, just before Storm tagged in and they used a double team back elbow on him. Beer Money then went for a wicked looking reversed backbreaker ... guess you call it a gut wrencher... Storm going for a cover but Brother Ray breaking it up. Storm then used an upper cut knocking Moore back down as Roode tagged in. Roode then with a snapmare on Moore before slapping on a chinlock. Moore fought out with a series of elbows then off the ropes for a sunset flip but only got a near fall. Roode answered with a hard running clothesline, but only got a near fall. Another tag to Storm, who used a few knees to the guts then went right back to working on the back and neck of Moore with another chinlock. Moore once again fought out with more elbows, then used a standing bulldog on Storm. Roode tagged in, Jesse Neal tagged in. Neal with a series of short clotheslines and a large back body drop before turning his attention to the Guns! in the corner sending them off the apron with more clotheslines. Neal then used a frontal swing slam. (I'm not sure what else to call it) Only got him a two count before Storm ran in for the save. BMI then used a double team move on Neal, as Brother Ray tagged himself in with double running clotheslines on BMI. Neal then used a schoolboy roll up on Ray but the Guns! in for the save. Guns! with their trademark stereo kicks to Ray, Devon then in with a series of punches to both Shelley and Sabin, before Shelley with a drop toe hold and Sabin with a standing flying elbow to the back. NICE! They then followed it with their trademark double teamed basement dropkick/semi-pull back. Sabin then with the stepladder dropkick on Storm in the corner knocking him off the ring apron. Sabin then on the apron was going for his wicked kick on Roode but Roode swept the leg out and dragged him down hard on the ring apron face first. Is Sabin okay? Slingshot clothesline by Shelley then on Roode. Back in the ring, Neal was pounding on the back of Devon in the corner before Ray came in with a hard punch. Neal then on the shoulders of Ray, Devon off the top turnbuckle for a flying short clothesline, going for the cover but Moore in for the save. Moore got planted in the top turnbuckle for his trouble. Ray then slapped Neal and charged at Moore in the corner, Moore got out of the way as Ray went face first into the turnbuckle. Moore off the top rope with a twisting neck breaker, Neal then with a gore for the win.

Um Okay

2010-05-11T21:56:00.000-04:00

Season 4 of Sex and the City gave us Tampons on the Table. Where else can you have an talk about fertility and abortions over brunch and get away with tampons on the table in public?

SATC2 is in 16 days. I had hoped to have a few new posts on the show for a countdown, but things have not been going as planned.

I have to read Jane Slayre for book club. (which I had put on hold for week cause of Eat Pray Love)
I have some how once again re-injured my back. Yeah nice Eh? Just sitting here for the five minutes its taking to do this post has me in tears. So I won't be doing a whole hell of a lot around here for awhile. The wrestling event is this weekend and I need to be able to stand up semi-straight for that so, right now there is much laying around with ice packs.
I don't really have a third point I just thought two looked odd.

My Thoughts on TNA Impact for May 3rd 2010-Highlights

2010-05-10T15:11:00.000-04:00

Yeah I know it's a full week late. I have been searching between iTunes Canada and the official Spike TV website since last Tuesday morning. Spike had it at noon today.

Remember my Spudguns, if you didn't hear it already, it's official IMPACT IS MOVING BACK TO THURSDAYS STARTING THIS WEEK! So from what I understand, there will be NO episode tonight (May 10th Monday) But there will be one on this Thursday May 13th
I hate watching the show this way, cause it's like watching stop animation there are so many digital mess ups and buffering and ..... ggrrr!
Jay Lethal... oh my! Did he finally drop the frealing gimmick? That would be nice... um Jay thinks he's the Nature Boy now.... loud groan. Well, at lest he looks hot in a suit. Finally he got rid of the sparkly moo-moo! I can get behind that I can totally. Dude! what the hell? It keeps skipping... serious. The first segment with Lethal kept jumping to the next segment.
Hey did I ever tell you that my ex Dargo looked just like Robert Roode..... Everytime someone else logs on to the website it causes a traffic jam and craps out the show for me. Who's the security hottie with the tattoos?

(Dude! when iTunes Canada gets this for download I will re-do this post. This is just a mess with the stopping and skipping and ggrrr)

Kendrick/Williams vs Jessie Neal/Shanon Moore (Ink Inc) .... Jessie Neal won with a spear on Kendrick

Knock Out tag team Beautiful People vs Tara/Sereta/Wilde... BP's win with a cheat of a double teamed DDT

A.J. Styles vs Abyss.... Styles won with a distraction from Flair and Chelsie

Wolfe vs RVD....RVD won and keeps his championship

And the MotorCityMachine Guns! They were in a 3 way tag match against Beer Money Inc and Team 3D.... Sabin was spring boarding off the top ropes in this amazing flips that must have gotten a height of at lest 6 feet (off the top rope which would have put it what...in the rafters) Mr. Shelley blue and orange???? You know what with the bad colouring on this website and the stopping digital scrambledness of it... did I see right was Mr. Shelley bouncing on the second rope like it was a playground toy? Nash and Hall came down got the match thrown out, then Mr. Yummy...er Eric Young is with Nash's crew now... and dude, blue and orange tights really???

Well I am traditional

2010-05-09T11:17:00.000-04:00

I've never considered myself conservative. But I've always considered myself traditional.

I believe in marriage. I also believe there is nothing wrong with living together. I know contradicting myself a little.

You've heard me say that I do not approve of the situation my sister is in. She started up with a married man who has four kids. It's made the last 2 years of the relationship between my sister and me pretty much non-existent.
They moved in together this last week. He's left his wife completely and now really started a proper life with my sister.

They were over here for a few minutes the last few days bringing me empty boxes and a coffee table. The little bit of "hi how you doing today" is the most I've talked to this man in 2 years. I am not sure I will ever be completely comfortable with him, but I also know I need to start if I ever want to get back the bit of relationship with my sister as it looks like he's going to be hanging around. This is one of the longest relationships my sister has ever had so....

Here's the thing. She was happy! She was over here yesterday bringing me the empty boxes and she was just glowing she was so happy. In the 28 years that Ninja has been on this planet I have never seen her happy. I've seen her hyper but never happy to the core of her being happy.
Maybe she found her ONE.

What do you mean I cant' watch that video in Canada

2010-05-07T21:49:00.000-04:00

Let's start from the beginning.   and I am so going to get my ass kicked from my sister on this but who the freal cares Eh?
Picture it.... 1997, and I'm stranded on my mother's sofa with a broken leg for 8 months. This was round one of surgery on my ankles. Anyway, my sister, who is 8 years younger then I am, was going through some personal dren at that time. This was also the time the Backstreet Boys released their first cd in Canada and France. Ninja became obsessed with the BSB.   (that would be me getting my ass kicked right about now)
Now, I was a die hard metal head so any kind of fluffy pop music made me want to vomit. And I held on to that idea for a very long time. Well, one night there's me trapped in the living room and my sister stretched out infront of the tv watching Backstreet Boys. I found myself humming along. I became hooked. I admit it, fell head over crutches for Kevin of the Backstreet Boys, which worked out nicely as all my sister's friends seemed to have a thing for the other members and their little group was Kevin-fan-less.
It became the one thing other then Wicca that my sister and I bonded over at that time in life.
Well, she's long since dropped both, but I have not.

I have been reading Eat Pray Love this past week, finding myself wanting to listen to songs from about a decade ago which fits in the timeframe of the book. And went on a mad search for one video by Nick Carter, "Do I Have To Cry For You" which is one of my all time favourite slow songs. Yes I'm a total weeping puppy when it comes to romantic mushy stuff. So here's me searching the internet cause I want to watch this video from 2002, and I keep getting "Sony Music has removed that video as it is no longer available in your Country".

Um what? Pardon me? What do you mean I cant' watch it? It's a music video.   It took some finding, but I did find one on the official Sony Music youtube. I love this song it's so sappy. I love this video cause the acting is so bad. And well it's Nick.

And The Winner is By CountOut

2010-05-06T10:25:00.000-04:00

Or Hail Sabin Volume 5

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It's a question I need to ask myself "why do I try to see who you all want to see more of on here when Chris Sabin wins everytime?"
It was a small voting population, but Mr. Sabin won the poll for this years "This Blog's Sexiest Man (wrestler) Alive" proving once again, that nobody comes here for me, they only come here to read about Mr. Sabin. I don't blame you actually, as he's much prettier then I am.

So you know what this means Eh? It means I have to think of something new to nag him lovingly about other then his hair so that there is something to chat about in regards to him.
I'll think of something. I will. But as always, remember the rule, it can only be something that happens on Impact. NOTHING PERSONAL! Only allowed to nag about stuff from the show- which is why hair and wardrobe are totally fine to nag about.

With that said, I'll be back Backstreet.

I'm cute and funny

2010-05-03T20:10:00.002-04:00

Damn I'm Cute!

2010-04-30T18:54:00.000-04:00

My Thoughts on TNA Impact for April 26th 2010

2010-04-27T22:05:00.000-04:00

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iTunes Canada had it at a decent time tonight

I still think that removing the belt from A.J. Styles was a mistake. A big, big, big, big mistake. You were setting up to give it to Abyss were you not? Then you swerve and hand it to RVD ? What the freal for? Mistake! Styles could have handled holding that title for at lest another 5 months before it got tired. The logical step would have been to have him go against Abyss or even Eric Young for it, but noooooo you had to go and screw it up. No cookies for the crew. None.

Knock Outs match... Love vs Tara vs Rayne... Rayne won with a roll up and keeps her title.

Shannon Moore vs Kaz. And the story here is, that Kaz won the Lockdown ppv last week, but the championship belt is still in the possession of former champ Doug Williams who is still stuck in Europe because of the volcanic ash. For anyone who might have been wondering why Kaz came out without the belt. They started with a collar tie up that was quickly turned into an armlock by Moore. Kaz countered by tossing Moore over, then used a deep armdrag before following it with a scoop slam. He missed with the elbow though as Moore rolled out of the way. Moore then delivered two arm drags and a scoop slam of his own on Kaz. Another collar tie up,which Kaz turned into a side headlock on Moore. Moore fought out getting Kaz in a scissors flip. This was followed with an inverted atomic drop and a double leg take down, Kaz on the mat. Moore used a leg drop but only got a two count. Kaz in the corner, as Moore came charging at him, but he moved out of the way using the rope as a slide. Kaz from outside slingshot into the ring with an armdrag on Moore. Kaz backed this with a spinning neck breaker but only got a two count. Moore got to his feet and went to the apron for a inside sunset flip but was caught by Kaz. Kaz was going for a reversed piledriver but Moore countered and was thrown into the ref. Moore was going for a top rope move, but Kaz delivered a sharp kick to the side of the skull. Kaz then went for a top rope hurricanrana but it was blocked by Moore who then went for a top rope move himself. It was ruined by Matt Morgan the evil druid as he ran out pushing Moore to the ground. Morgan the evil druid then pushed Moore back into the ring, and Kaz used his reversed piledriver for the win. Kaz is still the X-Division champ. Samoa Joe then came down after the match for a five minute beat down on Kaz. And the muscle buster will get a large pop no matter who is on the other end of it cause it's such a Beauty of a move.

A.J. Styles/Sting vs Jeff Jarrett/Hardy.... Now, you know how I feel about Sting and Hardy so... that don't impress me much. This was a falls count anywhere no dq match. Jarrett and Sting in the ring, Styles and Hardy on the ramp. (dude that sounds so wrong) Oh damn! Styles got suplexed on the ramp hard. But it was only a two count. I've said this a million times, I am not a fan of hardcore/street fight matches at all. I don't understand why the guys would want to do those type of matches I really don't.
I do however, like the fact they are scrolling injury reports on the screen. Sting pinned Jarrett for the win on the stairs.

Team 3D vs Matt Morgan the evil druid/Jessie Neal. Neal and Devon started with a collar tie up. Devon turned it into a side head lock, then slammed Neal with a hard shoulder block knocking him down. Neal walked right into another side headlock before Brother Ray tagged in with a wicked sounding slap to Neal. Brother Ray followed up with a bear hug. Nash and Hall then came to the ring ruining the match. I think run ins work much better when you do NOT play the music. When you don't know who is coming till they are in the camera's view

Flair vs Abyss. They started with a collar tie up, Flair getting tossed across the ring. Flair started to kick Abyss then went for his trademark chops. Abyss turned it around, getting Flair into the corner with a series of punches. Followed it up with a back body drop on Flair. another round of chops from Flair now outside of the ring. Abyss put Flair face first into the rails. Back in the ring and Flair used a thumb to the eye,then was heading for a top rope move, but Abyss caught him slamming him down hard in the middle of the ring. Big boot from Abyss knocking Flair down. A hard side slam from Abyss followed that, before a large splash in the corner from Abyss. Flair did his trademark falling flouso on his face and eyes. Lowblow takes the ref down. Hahaha Then Flair used the brass knuckles as a lowblow. Dude! damn. Flair gets the win. The ref saw the brass knuckles and restarted the match. Flair went right for Abyss with a kick to the face, a series of punches and chops. Abyss shook it off before Abyss used his blackhole slam for the win.

WHERE THE HELL WERE THE MOTORCITYMACHINE GUNS!

Love in India -Movie

2010-04-26T12:08:00.000-04:00

I just watched this documentary on iTunes. Now, you've heard me say before that I am a documentary freak. Been known to rent dvds of movies I've had for years on vhs just for the commentary. (best rock-doc I have ever seen was Metal: A Headbanger's Journey )

This film Love in India left me confused. It seemed to ask more questions then actually explore anything. I didn't learn much from it other then the fact Gods/Goddesses are so interwoven. But, we already knew that.
This talks about society's double standard on marriages in India, as well as the most popular mythology in regards to sex/love. Parts of which sounds very similar to that of Dionysus (the interwoven gods part) and left me feeling kind of disappointed.
We follow the film maker and his lover over a course of time (we never find out how long they were shooting for) as they interview friends and family about their personal views on marriage, and the lack of sex education classes.

I'm not sure I walked away from this one liking or hating it. It's one I wouldn't mind seeing again and having someone to discuss it with.

Sidenote: it's a subtitled film.

The Book Dork is In... part 4

2010-04-24T13:58:00.000-04:00

Last time on the Book Dork, our heroine was bored and insulted by the youth of today. Now today on the Book Dork....

Book Dork: You read many biographies?

Book Club Member : Love biographies. Love zombies. Love almost anything. Have a Masters in English Lit and a Law degree.

Book Dork: What topics are off limits?

Book Club Member: Relationships. So nothing romantic right now. Let's stick to the zombies. Oh this looks good. {she picks up a copy of Jane Slayre by Sherri Browning Erwin } You like vamps and zombies?

Book Dork: That's a trick question right?

Book Club Member: So we're good to go on this book? Really into the zombies right now.

Book Dork: I'm a major Buffy/Angel fan.

Book Club Member: Me too. I really am not one for Twilight though. I thought that was just pointless. Big Anne Rice fan though.

Book Dork: If you were a man it would be love

Tune in next time for another edition of Book Dork Adventures in Geekiness.

A little hero worship never hurt

2010-04-24T10:01:00.000-04:00

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The thing with addictions, sometimes rehab doesn't work and you have a slip and fall right back into your addiction. I know I said no more silliness but... Damn it Janet! Mr. Shelley is just so frealing hot!

I can't help it SIR I HAVE AN ADDICTION! and he's beautiful I like to look at him. Is it possible to overdose on a man? Not sure, but I'm very willing to try.
Okay, so I have the maturity of a cat in heat. Alright enough creepiness for one morning, I'm off to book club, and yes I'll have another Book Dork is In post when I get back later.

Unopened Letters to an Imaginary Husband part 7

2010-04-23T12:06:00.000-04:00

I was asked why I started this series of posts.
There is a few reasons.

I'm working the Soulmate Secret by Arielle Ford.
I believe in the Law of Attraction (remember it's just another form of magick )
The blog was getting too heavy with all my rants and crying
I like poetry
There is nothing wrong with showing some gratitude to the universe ahead of time for bringing the right guy to me (remember it's the law of return too- what you put out you get back)
The right guy might stumble across my blog and see the pretty poetry and be so taken that he has to contact me.
I love the idea of love letters. And honestly, I think men do too.

I've been told I wear my heart on my sleeve. Um yeah, it's covering my tattoo. I'm a deeply emotional person, good bad or otherwise. I'm also brutally honest. If I love you I'll tell you, if I hate you I'll tell you, if I just want to freal you, I'll tell you that too.
Yes, I'm as immature as a cat in heat sometimes... well most the time, but I'm also loyal.
In the movie Trick or Treat (1986) the character of Sammi Curr says "You should be loyal to your heroes or they may turn on you". I think that goes for love too.

My Thoughts on TNA Impact for April 19th 2010-Highlights

2010-04-22T16:10:00.000-04:00

3 days late again on iTunes Canada

A.J. Styles came to the ring wearing the cuff links in his ears again and too much self tanner/make-up.   Do I have to start yelling at the make-up crew again...Stop it! The wrestlers do not need to look like oranges.

Oh look air.... hey anyone else looking forward to the remake of Nightmare on Elm Street at the end of the month? I am...

Knock Outs tag match... I don't care

Wow alot of filler on the show tonight and you know how I feel about filler.   Oh look more air.
Time for another coffee... this is just a terrible show tonight

Then two guys I can't stand had a match ... then they both did a mini commentary on their replay. Okay...um why?

A return match from the ppv this past weekend. Team Flair vs Team Hogan.   Which is another group of guys I don't care for so... But it was the return of Samoa Joe. Dude, you're looking like a bit of a zombie, that your Clockwork Orange eyes? All bugged out and spaced.

A.J. Styles went up against RVD... I don't like RVD.   Damn it Styles! lost the belt. Really not happy at all.

I'll be back to normal with the review next week my Spudguns.

The perfect date

2010-04-22T12:50:00.000-04:00

Oh my... this will get .... Tacky.

So, few days ago, I was having one of my normal conversations with my buddy Patrick (odd to everyone around us, normal to us) about something we read on the internet. And Patrick goes "sounds like he was giving you date ideas"

No I will not fill you in on what we were reading.

But, it did start a mad fit of laughter from me for about fifteen minutes.   What can I say, when something gets me going I am difficult to turn off.
and now, few days later the conversation has popped back into my head.
I can't help but wonder, with the release of the new Sex and the City 2 in a matter of weeks, what would be a good modern date. Why the connection to SATC2 when I have no intention of going with anyone nor am I dating anyone to go with anyway.... Cause it's SATC2! Women in this city are buying new outfits and shoes and saving money to get to the opening night. Trust me, it's an event. Sadly, I won't be going the opening night, I'll have to wait a few days for the crowds to die down, besides it will be right after the Great North Wrestling has been here so you know I'll be dead broke... were was I going with this... OH Right dates.

Everyone is different. And as I learned last summer from the string of bad ones, dating is something I lack any skill at. No, I will not be trying that experiment up again this summer once was enough. Dude, you do realize that last summer was the first time in 20 years I had been on a "date"
Anyway, told you it would get tacky, anyway, my ideas of a date perfect, good, bad or otherwise seem very well, old fashioned and boring to most the people I talk to. They seem to find bar hopping for loud concerts or general drinking matches top on the list. Second on that list being hitting the hockey games.
Really? I mean really? So what you're saying is that you need to be in a loud environment where you can't have any kind of conversation with the person and be very drunk in the process. Dude, how uncomfortable are you with yourself?

For me it's simple.   Go for coffee maybe even one of the coffee shops that doesn't get much traffic so that you have it almost to yourself, and a walk. Which gives you the chance to get close if things are working, or you know run away if they're not. And from there, and this is the big compatibility test, head back to my apartment to watch Big Money Hustlas.

I could never love a man who doesn't love that movie. If a guy can sit through that film, with me, and my rewinding on Monoxide's parts - he steals the movie in the feeties pajamas- and still be comfortable enough to enjoy the movie, well... You know, I've never met a guy who can.

Are you loosing sleep over me?

2010-04-21T12:32:00.000-04:00

So I'm working on the 3rd draft of my novel, and need to ask the men reading this, and I really need some honest feedback; how bad is a break up on your end?

My straight male friends have stopped answering my questions. It seems I'm getting too personal with my questions.

Actually one of my favourite songs is "You're the Reason" by Bobby Edwards (you're the reason I don't sleep at night/I'm betting you're not loosing sleep over me/but if I'm wrong don't fail to call)

Dude, do not make me google

2010-04-20T20:37:00.000-04:00

Patrick : Like Fall Out 3

Me : What?

Patrick: Fall Out 3.

Me: What the hell is that?

Patrick: Woman Google It.

Me: Dude! We've been through this before, Do Not Make Me Google. I don't google.

Patrick: Start. Cause now I'm not telling you.

Me: I don't google.

This is what many conversations with my buddy Patrick are like. He knows I am pop-culture deficient. And he's a dork. Yes I said it, dork. But he admits to his dorkdom. Do you?
My pop-cultureness ended around 2003 when Buffy got canceled. I sort of ended up in a weird coma when it comes to what's hip and fresh and ... yes I just used the terms hip and fresh. See, my dorkdom is showing.

If you could feel what I'm thinking

2010-04-20T16:23:00.000-04:00

That's a quote from an old, old Eddie Eastman song.

It's one of those days.
I seem to be having those alot lately. Just kinda blah. A ton of dishes that I just don't want to face, but at some point in the next few hours have to as, I have no clean dishes at all. Not so much as a spoon. That's what 3 days of cooking/baking does.

Waiting around like every week now for iTunes Canada to have TNA for download. So far, still waiting. I really hope they have it before the weekend you know.

I got another book in the mail for review. Yay me.

Well, I'm in the process of shutting down all my ning sites. Which is sort of sad but over due. And the reason is because Ning.com is going to a pay site. I just can't afford it. Can't afford it for one site let alone the fact I was running 4. (my company one, my vampire site, my pagan and my horror)
My admins team are relieved too.

But on a lighter note, I have up my sleeve some video reviews for next week. Hoping to have them next week. Time and energy permitting. The book review will have to be my top to do lister for the next few days. And it's historical fiction so it's not my usual genre.

Don't worry, the wrestling columns will be up as soon as possible.

Remember, life should be filled with food, laughter and bad camera work always.

Enjoy Your Hunk

2010-04-19T18:34:00.000-04:00

I used screen capture for this post

Since it seems this is all I am good for....

A screen shot from the April 12th 2010 episode.
Yeah, iTunes Canada finally had it available for download. Full week late. Let's hope tonight's isn't too late (anything past Wed morning is late)

Monday April 19th 2010

2010-04-19T10:32:00.005-04:00

What's up?

Did I blog about my eye doctor's on Friday? dude I can't remember. If not and I'm way to lazy to check this here blog, let me tell you what I learned.
My glasses are too strong. Yeah imagine that. So you're telling me that the last time I was in 5 years ago, the old eye doctor who worked here screwed up?
Great, thanks good to know.

I never did get last week's episode of TNA Impact on iTunes Canada, it's like they are just ... I don't know a full week behind again.

And I put up recipes on My Newfie Kitchen last night

About those Tag Team belts

2010-04-16T00:02:00.001-04:00

I used a screen capture for this post

Dear Mr. Sabin and Mr. Shelley

Last month I posted that if I did not see those tag team belts around your waists soon, there would be hell. Well, it's been a month, and you still have no TNA belts, so I must rant and nag...

What do you mean you lost your match to Matt Morgan the evil druid and Amazing Red? How could you let them beat you? You're better then that. Much better, you know it, I know it, the fans know it, most important you know it. (wait I said that didn't I?) I was sitting there watching the show (April 12th 2010 episode) thinking for sure this time. I mean man, the odds were stacked FOR YOU, what happened? Okay so this is more a whine then a rant but... what's going on? Where in the production notes did it say "Sabin gets pinned" that makes no sense, none. I'm going to pretend that Red ad-libed that part of the production notes, cause... why man why?

Is it your schedule? Are you too busy to hold those belts right now? Is it because of your injuries? Are you unable to hold those belts right now cause you are not healed enough from your injuries to be fighting champs?
Are the belts not pretty enough and you think they would clash with your tights? You could wear jeans to the ring that would look good with the belts would it not?

Are the belts too heavy on your hips cause your waists are so tiny? That's okay, they can take the belts in or you know you could wear them around your neck like you did your New Japan Jr Tag belts. You made those look sexy all wrapped like a winter scarf.

Dude! Come on already and win the TNA Tag Team belts!!! You should have had them like ten times by now but; no you just keep teasing me with being the number one contenders for the tag belts and then don't follow through making me disappointed with you. Why do you keep teasing and taunting me like that with promises of you being the TNA Tag champs then not doing it? .... It's cause I am Canadian isn't it? Have I not shown enough support and love to you guys?
You are the greatest tag team in the last 20 years, so why have you not won those belts yet?

My Thoughts on TNA Impact for April 12th 2010

2010-04-15T22:12:00.000-04:00

I know the column is getting later in the week every week. iTunes Canada still does not have it, but Spike official website finally does so here we go...

And the first question of the night is Why ... why are you wasting my time? Then there was a lot of crap I didn't pay any attention to until I saw Brother Ray come down to the announce booth ... then he said their match was a street fight and I lost interest again...It was Team 3D/Jessie Neal vs Nash and his boys... and we are suppose to believe that that so called distraction by that Bubba feller was just .... dude I run faster then that and I'm handicap... Then Mr Yummy... er Young came down with a hockey stick. How very Canadian of you, do it again!

Shannon Moore vs Kaz. They started with a collar tie up, which lead to Moore in the corner. Moore got a second collar tie up and a front slam on Kaz before starting to work on the arm of Kaz with a wrist lock. Kaz managed to reverse it and put him in a side headlock, hanging onto the dreadful hairdo for a hiptoss take down. Moore managed to break out of that hold and went right back to working on the arm of Kaz with a series of hard elbows. He got an armdrag on Kaz sending him across the ring before going back to work on the left shoulder. This went on for a few minutes in a back and forth sort of way. He then got an inverted atomic drop on Kaz backing it up with a leg drop before getting him in the corner with a series of shoulder blocks. Kaz battled out and got the top rope down sending Moore flying to the floor. Back in the ring and Kaz slingshots himself back with a legdrop on Moore but only a two count. Kaz followed through with three slams into the corner then a suplex but still only got a near fall. Moore tried then for a crossbody but was cut short by landing on Kaz's knee. Moore was going for a aerial move but it took both men down to the mat. Moore then got a clothesline, spin kick and a drop kick on Kaz knocking him to outside of the ring then used a moonsault on him. Both men down. Back in the ring, and Moore went for another high risk move but Kaz caught him and used a modified necktie/bridge only getting the two count. Moore went for his corkscrew moonsault but Kaz managed to kick out. And we hit a time limit no one won. Wow. That's impressive actually, when was the last time on television that happened?

I've said this a million times, I love Jay Lethal as Jay Lethal. Please please please drop the gimmick, get rid of the damned sparkly moo-moo. I mean man, isn't your throat sore after 3 years of doing that voice?
He teamed with Pope...er was suppose to but Beer Money Inc kind of used a backstage five minute beat down on Lethal. Hey maybe when Lethal comes to from the bottle shot he'll be old Jay again?

Knock Outs in a nontitle match.... don't care and damn it can't even fast forward cause I'm watching on the official website.

Robert Roode vs the guy I don't like so... moving on.
Pope vs A.J. Styles/Wolfe in a handicap match. ... or you know not as Wolfe got a steel chair to the back as he was coming to the ring. Well what do you expect with 4 minutes on the show and this being the main event and all, not like they were actually going to give us a match or anything. Oh look Styles removed the damned cufflinks from his ears. Maybe he's listening to my fashion advice after all. Pope tossed Styles off the ramp onto the rails, then face first into the stairs. Finally get into the ring, Pope has Styles on his shoulders but Styles used a rake to the face to brake the hold then used a kick to the back of the skull. Flair disrupted the match and a dq was called.

And the MotorCityMachine Guns! vs Matt Morgan the evil druid and Amazing Red. Alex Shelley and Matt Morgan started it off, with w collar tie up, Shelley getting tossed like a ragdoll. Shelley came back at him with a series of kicks but got caught with a simple shoulder block. Chris Sabin ran in but was greeted with a short clothesline both MMG are down on the mat. Morgan picked up Shelley holding him in his hesitation slam then dropped him hard where upon Shelley landed on Sabin. Dude are you two okay? Both Guns are out of the ring now. Red tagged in as did Sabin, who had Red in a side head lock. Sabin bounced off the ropes with a shoulder block to Red, then the two played leapfrog for a few seconds before Red used a headscissors tossing Sabin to the corner. Shelley tagged back in. Red got him with a hard kick to the back of the skull/neck. Dude again is he okay? Sabin came in, Red slid out of the ring, Sabin with a wicked kick from the apron flipping over Red. Beauty! Just Beauty! Back in the ring and Sabin gets a two count. Red fights back landing a hard mule kick to the jaw of Sabin sending him rocking but the Guns! managed to use a double team move on him but still only a two count. Morgan tagged himself in and Sabin went right for him with a series of forearms but got a stiff elbow for his troubles. Shelley came in to help and got footprinted to the face. Oh God! Is Sabin alright? Morgan picked him up by the back of the neck and just slammed Sabin face first off the top turnbuckle, causing him whiplash. He then went for a stack up in the corner but the Guns! managed to slid on the second rope and get out of the way. Shelley went for a crossbody, Sabin coming in to help with the pin but Morgan tossed them both like butter. Red tagged in, Sabin is now the legal man, Red used a floatin and a sunset flip but Sabin answered with a kick to Red's face. Shelley in with a charge to the corner but Red kicked him then used a flying DDT. Sabin in, but got flipped inside out by Morgan who ran into the ring. Morgan then was setting Shelley up for his trademark hellevator but Red stole the win with a Code Red on Sabin. Hang on! Mr. Shelley Mr. Sabin what did I say to you like a month ago on here, if I didn't see those belts around your tiny little skeleton waists soon I was going to send you angry letters... oh I feel a rant coming on in the next post I do.

The highlight of the show this week for me was watching the little crawl screen updates that Spike Official website has at the bottom of the video. Lovely seeing what the rest of you zombied perverts were watching while I was trying to do this review. Not even Mr. Shelley could keep my attention tonight for more then a few seconds.

ROH review... I hope -April 12th 2010

2010-04-14T22:49:00.000-04:00

Okay guys, I have been trying to get my hands on copies of Ring Of Honor stuff. For those of you- my Spudguns who read this on a regular basis, you know I do not have cable. Everything I get is off the internet. Mostly iTunes Canada.
I know that ROH was being shown online every week, but for whatever reason, my "region" wasn't able to get it. Many times I would find something only to get a message that said "that product is not supported in your region" or worse still "item you are trying to view has been removed for copyright reasons"
Well, I think that enough people must have complained or just you know broke rules or something because Oh My God! I got to watch the ROH episode for this past week on youtube

So here we go with my first ROH review... I hope. ROH April 12th 2010
*It seems this is right after the latest ROH ppv and we have Tyler Black still the champ.

*Jerry Lynn vs Jake Maning (his name never came up so forgive me if I'm wrong) Jake kicked Lynn, going for a off the ropes shoulder block before Lynn turned it around landing one on him. Lynn then slapped on a side headlock, and a hip toss. He then started to work on the arm of Maning, going for a cover but only got a two count before Maning kicked out. Lynn was then backed into the corner but spun out of the way, reversing it on him. Maning then slammed him down hard on the top rope across his neck. Maning continued then to work on the injured neck but Lynn got a near fall with what looked like a standing crossbody. Maning then used a jawbreaker before applying a submission move craning the neck of Lynn. Maning went for a top rope move but Lynn pulled a hurricanrana followed by a series of clotheslines. Lynn finished it off with a piledriver for the win.

*Steve Cornio... damn sorry drooling again. But damn! I keep forgetting he's Canadian. He went up against El Generico . Or I should say, he trashed mouthed El Generico who ripped the clothes off Cornio... sorry got distracted. What? I'm a Cornio fan from back in ECW okay.

*Kevin Steen vs Eddie Edwards. Steen kicked him in the elbow before backing him into the corner, continuing to lay down forearms and punches. He then sent Edwards out to the floor, continuing to work on the injured arm. He threw him back into the ring to brake the count, but Edwards used a suicide dive knocking him down. Steen was sent hard into the rails before Edwards gave him a large boot to the jaw. Steen got the advantage once again, by dragging Edwards to the ring apron and slamming his arm hard into the ring post. He then used a steel chair against the post sandwiching the arm. Back in the ring now and Steen had him in the middle with an armlock. Edwards battled out with a series of headbutts and a armdrag hiptoss. Edwards followed that up with a kick to the skull and a headscissors take over. Steen went for a top rope swan dive but only got a two count. They started to trade blows then for a few minutes but Edwards used a suplex for the advantage. Edwards sent Steen over with a large flip, clothesline and a sit down powerbomb. Steen came back to once again work on the elbow, but Edwards went off the top rope with a flying codebreaker. Only got a two count. Steen went for a powerbomb but only had a two count. Steen then headed up to the top turnbuckle but was caught up with a kick to the side of the skull which rocked him, but somehow came back and slapped on a crossface. Edwards used a small package for the win.

Okay, I wish I could say this will be a new weekly column, but the best I can do is say, I'll do my best. But I will be doing a ROH review as often as I can.

Marilyn Manson is still cool right?

2010-04-14T09:44:00.000-04:00

Stop laughing this is serious.   Well as serious as I can get.
I am doing a writing exercise, and need to create a character that is cutting edge, only my age is showing. Big time.
The character a 25 year old girl.     Me, a 36 year old woman.    See the issue.

I got my musical taste from my Uncle. Uncle was a metal head, and so was I.   Sepultura, Pantera, My Dying Bride, COC, Testament, Overkill, Motley Crue (Nikki Sixx is still a god!) you get the idea. I have a younger sister Ninja, who I used to go to concerts with back 13 years ago, boy bands mostly. Her tastes have gone in a different direction from day one, Ninja and I are night and day to each other. Anyways, my musical evolution went from Sepultura to Frank Sinatra without missing a beat. Uncle's went to classical opera. Yeah, no joke. Getting a lift from him now is filled with opera singers on his cd player.

I know for someone who spends their life online, I am so out of touch with pop-culture. Are goths even still goths? Are punks even still listening to Sex Pistols ?     What's going on here?

This is the big downfall of being a writer, you spend more time alone in your own world in your own head and loose total ability to socialize.

Someone help!   Music, seems I need some new stuff as does my character.   Leave me some notes on what I should be adding to my music collection.

Holy Anne Rice Novels Batman

2010-04-13T08:56:00.009-04:00

I used screen capture for this post.

Holy Anne Rice Novels Batman -Did you see that episode of X-Division on TNA Epics?

That was a hard one, hard to get that out. Sorry I said that whole line out loud when typing it and it had me laughing for about ten minutes. Try it, I dare you.
What brings this up today out of nowhere? Well, come on it's TNA so for me it's never out of nowhere really. Well, I was hunting around iTunes Canada, looking for last night's show, which is not available yet and trust me I'll be checking every 20minutes till it is, and saw that they finally got TNA Epics on iTunes Canada. Very cool. So I bought the X-Division episode. Which by the by is the only one listed as having been bought by fans.
Why? Why has no one in Canada bought the Sting or Angle episodes?
Because, the X-Division episode never aired here, so fans have had to get their X-Division Epics episode (say that 7 times fast Eh?) from iTunes Canada.
And you know what, the ppv match of the Ultimate X from 2009's Bound for Glory was lovely. It was lovely and amazing. (Pun intended)
So I am watching this episode and whenever they cut to interviews with Bishoff he's rolling his eyes when he talks about the guys. Did anyone else find that insulting?

I don't know what you want from me

2010-04-13T00:45:00.000-04:00

You hide from me when you need me most,
You rip me from myself when I need me most,
Under a pale spotlight of trust, that slowly binds us together,
I'm tired and I can't take it anymore, I need to feed but I'm nothing more then a vampire in a room of zombies, empty and alone
I don't know what you want from me, you have never said, never shown, never explained,
Is it the moisture on my lips, as you lick them sending a shiver up my spine, or is it something else that you've planted in me burning me up from the inside,
You say you are my friend but yet you haven't tried, I'm still stuck walled up brick by brick inside, while you stand there in the cold snow, ankle deep and wet
You hide from me when you need me most,
You rip me from myself when I need me most,
You're not the spirit of the show not the host
I don't know what you want from me, you have never said, never shown, never explained,
Just pointed to your chest telling me your way is the best,
I don't know what you want from me, and I've cried begged pleaded with you to let me know, to kindly thank you, to open up just a little of your locked door,
But still you hide, like a shadow in the darkened corner of my mind, of my heart, daring me to start over again my song, to hit the beat and drag it on,
I don't know what you want from me, you refuse to say refuse to give me the time of day,
But you expect me to stay, to be waiting for you without love without passion without - you
I don't know what you want from me,

By Ardeth Blood April 12th 2010

I don't love you anymore.

2010-04-12T21:37:00.000-04:00

Well, yeah that's how I am feeling right now.

One couple Two spiritual paths

2010-04-12T00:35:00.000-04:00

Can it work?

I talked on here before about having failed a wedding project back in high school (too damned lazy to go through the blog to link the post ) Well I was looking over part of the project today cause I... not even sure why, just was... anyway, there was a list we had to make of what we wanted in our husbands.

Nothing that was important to me 20 years ago, is now.
I know that you have to compromise for any chance in any relationship. Decide what are the little things and what are the major.

For instance, I know finding a guy with my taste in music is not going to happen. That's a little thing and what ipods were invented for. I also know that finding a man who is a vegetarian, is also nearly a zero chance. That's another little thing and the reason I firmly believe in have two sets of frypans.
But, what about the big things like religion?

Can two people who are trying to share a life together be from two completely different spiritual paths?
Most of my friends are all married and their husbands/wives are the same religion as them. Two of my male cousins converted when they got married to their wives religion.

I know that is something I could never do, give up my spiritual path. Nor would I expect any man who came into my life to give up his.
So the question is put out there, can you be part of a couple but have two very different religions?

Question: Asking Men Stupid Questions part 4

2010-04-10T23:32:00.000-04:00

What is it with men and video games?
Every guy I have every dated/been involved with has been a game junkie.
Every interview I have seen with celebrities, has turned to talk of video games. What's the appeal?

Dude, I'm smart enough to know that for a relationship to work you need to have more then just trust, you need to have two tvs and two computers. Mostly so the guy can have his video games.

Big Money Rustlas -Trailer

2010-04-10T20:14:00.001-04:00

Okay now I'm not sure how patient I can be on this....

My Favourite Matches part 2

2010-04-10T18:32:00.000-04:00

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June 18th 2006
Six man elimination match Shark Boy vs Alex Shelley vs Sonjay Dutt vs Petey Williams vs Jay Lethal vs Senshi.

Shark Boy and Petey Williams started it off with a collar tie up that Shark Boy turned into a side headlock, that Williams tried to fight off. Shark Boy then went off the ropes with a running shoulder block sending Williams down. Williams then back to his feet landed a slap across the mask of Shark Boy before Shark Boy delivered a drop kick and a deep armdrag. He then continued to work on Williams arm for a few minutes before Williams got out of it. Shark Boy then gave him a back body drop. Williams came back with an inverted atomic drop then put Shark Boy in the tree of woe. Williams then was put out of the ring, Shark Boy getting the advantage again with a cross body block outside landing on him. Back in the ring, Jay Lethal tagged in. They used a few double team moves on Williams, with Lethal going for a cover but only getting a two count. Lethal delivered a backbreaker going for another cover but only a near fall. Williams now in the corner and Lethal with a float over but Williams landed a knee to the jaw of Lethal sweeping out his legs. Senshi tagged in, with a round of hard kicks to Lethal. Both men then started to exchange a series of chops, before Lethal gave him a drop kick. Senshi went off the ropes but was caught midmove by Lethal who used a flapjack on him putting him face first into the mat. A forearm from Lethal who then went off the ropes. He was stopped short by a mule kick from Senshi which gave Senshi a near fall. Alex Shelley tagged in. They used a double team move on Lethal before Shelley decided to work on the neck of Lethal with a necktie bridge. Lethal countered turning the necktie choke around on Shelley, which only lasted a few seconds before Shelley turned it around once more adding a backbreaker. He got a two count. Lethal turned it back to his advantage for a moment with a jaw breaker but as he came off the ropes, Shelley landed a mule kick to him. Shelley went for an off the ropes move himself, but was caught up in a hiptoss take over, and a low drop kick. Sonjay Dutt tagged in. He got Shelley in a headscissors take over, following it with a deep arm drag. He used a drop toehold and two standing moonsaults before getting a near fall. Now in the corner Dutt went for a top rope move but Shelley pulled him down onto the rope giving him a very intense rope burn. Shelley continued to use the ropes in his favour, then added a spinning kick for good measure. He got a near fall. This lead to a double leg take down and a perfect moonsault off the second rope. Another near fall. Then he did tagged Shark Boy in with a bit of a mind melt. The rest of the guys got into the ring then for a six pack suplex (Shelley, Williams, Senshi over) Shark Boy sent a few chops to Dutt, then a kick and a shoulder block from outside the ring. Dutt then delivered a few running elbows to Shark Boy who is now in the corner. This was countered with a stiff boot by Shark Boy. He went for the deadsea drop but was stopped, which he then used a neck breaker on Dutt. Shark Boy up to the top rope for an elbow drop but missed letting Dutt slap on a standing moonsault. Shark Boy has been eliminated. Shelley came in with a knee to the shoulder of Dutt, sending him into the corner with an extended leg to the throat of Dutt. Dutt then gave a open hand slap to the jaw of Shelley, who came back at him with a round kick to the back of the skull. Dutt went off the top rope but missed, as Shelley tossed him back into the corner and used a double kick to the back of his knees. Lethal tagged in with a drop kick on Shelley. Shelley managed to get the upper hand again with a simple face plant into the second turnbuckle then set Lethal up for his medium drop kick pushing the back of Lethal's neck hard into the second turnbuckle. Beauty. Shelley followed up with a brainbuster and top rope senton that backfired on him as Lethal got the knees up. Things in Lethal's favour now as he slapped on a full nelson overhook getting the pin on Shelley. Alex Shelley was eliminated. Everyone jumped into the ring and there were flying round houses everywhere for a few moments. Senshi was sent out of the ring by Dutt, then Williams went off the top rope with a cross body onto Senshi. Lethal used a suicide dive on Williams, Dutt top turnbuckle moonsault on all three men outside of the ring. Lethal and Williams in the ring. Lethal used a springboard but Williams got out of the way, but Lethal got him with a kick to the face. Williams then slapped on his Canadian Destroyer for a pin on Lethal. Jay Lethal was eliminated. Dutt in the ring with a series of kicks to Williams. Williams was in the corner managed to move and reverse things on Dutt with a hard leg drop on the ring apron. Williams got a near fall. Williams drops Dutt on the ropes, going for a running move but didn't see Senshi tag himself in. Senshi had a massive running clothesline on Williams. Senshi and Williams both climbing the ropes, Dutt used a flip on Williams Senshi landed his double stomp on Williams getting the pin. Petey Williams was eliminated. Dutt then gets a hurricanran off the top rope on Senshi followed by a low drop kick but only a two count. He backed this up with a spinning DDT before Senshi used another double foot stomp but only got a two count. Dutt used a jawbreaker on Senshi then climbed the ropes but was caught with the knees. This gave Senshi the advantage where upon he landed a vicious looking double drop kick to the face of Dutt sending him crashing into the corner. He had him in the tree of woe ending it with a double foot stomp to the head getting the win. Senshi went on to the ppv Slammiversary as the number one contender for the X-Division belt.

What I liked about this match, besides the obvious screen shot, were the unique moves Shelley was introducing into it, mostly against Lethal. There really wasn't anything too predictable in this match at all, and the pace was strong. The guys were quick with their moves, as well, the overall length of this match gave it; it's credit. This was also the first many of us had seen Senshi. I had not seen him wrestle as his former ego Loki, but his style was definitely a compliment to the rest of the guys in this match.

I'm jealous of a 16 year old...

2010-04-09T20:33:00.000-04:00

How that happen? And um why?

Well I was out with mom today, and spotted this teenaged couple. I sat there watching them interact and was very envious of the girl. Not because her boyfriend was good looking, cause he wasn't, but because of the way he was looking at her. I've seen this look before, from my male cousins when they've looked at their wives, from my male friends when they have looked at their girlfriends, when my married friend's husbands have looked at them, even once from VLHE's exhusband who came out as gay. That look of pure animalistic desire. That look that a man will get when he's thinking he doesn't care who's around or that he's in a public place. That look that is similar to what a hungry panther has when looking at it's prey.
A look I have witnessed a million times in other people, but have never been able to create in a guy myself.
So there I was, sitting around waiting for the bus watching these two teenagers cooing at each other like they were the only two people on the planet. Thinking, how did that girl create that desire in that boy? And I found myself both jealous and depressed.
Jealous of a 16 year old. How much lower can I get?

My Favourite Matches

2010-04-09T08:39:00.000-04:00

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You have all heard me saying for the last few months how unimpressed I am with the whole direction TNA Impact has gone. I keep complaining but no one is bothering to listen. Or are they? I read other fan sites and I know I am not the only one who feels this way. So, this will be a new column; don't worry, I'll still do the weekly review of the new Impact episodes every week; but this new column will be about matches from old episodes that I thought rocked. So let's kick 'er off shall we.

X-Division Match from Sept 14th 2006
Alex Shelley vs Chris Sabin

We start with an armbar on Sabin who countered with his roll through flip, reversing it on Shelley before taking him down to the mat. Shelley managed to kick off putting distance between them both. We move into a side headlock on Shelley, who broke the hold going back to working on Sabin's shoulder before sweeping out the legs from under Sabin. Shelley then had control of the match by standing on Sabin's wrist. Back to a standing position, and Sabin switches it putting another side headlock on Shelley. Sabin then off the ropes with a hard looking shoulder block sending Shelley down. Sabin then uses his cartwheel/armdrag tossing Shelley across the ring. Shelley then bounces off the ropes with his spinning underarm hook, following it with a knee to the stomach. He then put Sabin face first into the top turnbuckle before the counter of a headscissors sending Shelley outside of the ring. Suicide dive by Sabin knocks both men out for a moment. Back into the ring and Shelley delivers a hard forearm to the side of the skull of Sabin, rocking him. They back and forth with the forearms for another few moments. Shelley breaks the rhythm with a rake to the eyes, snapmare and a kick. It only gave him a two count. Shelley then went for a double leg takedown before landing one of his beautiful moonsaults, which missed. Sabin then is flipped over the top rope to land on his feet on the apron, giving Shelley a fist to the jaw before setting up his springboard dropkick. Shelley stumbled back into the corner and Sabin came charging at him with a straight kick to the side of the skull. Both men are tangled in the ropes. Sabin gets his wits about him and hangs Shelley in the tree of woe for his hesitation drop kick. Beauty. He got a two count but Shelley grabbed the bottom rope for the break. Nice. Shelley then comes back with his mule kick and a running drop kick. Lethal/Dutt/Devine case a small distraction letting Sabin use a rollup small package for the win.

What I liked about this match, it was no-nonsense. Even with the little distraction at the end it still focused on the men in the ring. This was at a point when Chris Sabin had held the X-Division belt only twice and Alex Shelley had been tagged up with Johnny Devine as the Paparazzi. I actually liked the paparazzi angle Shelley was doing at that time, it was different and somehow natural. It seemed to me though that they were just tossing him with anyone trying to create a tag team that never really gelled. (Nash, Devine, Aries) Sabin and Shelley as the MotorCityMachine Guns! Beauty. Like a gift from Dionysus. Shelley and Sabin against each other in a match, genius pure and simple.

My Thoughts on TNA Impact for April 5th 2010

2010-04-08T19:05:00.000-04:00

I used screen capture for this post.

iTunes Canada was 3 days late again. Dude, are you going to do this on the weeks of every live show? We have readers on this blog. Not as many as I would like, but readers none the less. Maybe I need to bring back the Sabin hair gimmick and get the return of the Sabin fans to the blog?

So we have a pointless flashback from last week then we go to an interview with the Knock Outs. Okay, you all know my rule about talking about the Knock Outs, but honestly, where are they all? Velvet Sky was saying how they -the TNA Knock Outs- have revolutionized the business, but in the last 4 months I have not seen anything new or revolutionary from the TNA women's division. It looks like the same stale old dren that the other company offers. I was impressed back 3 years ago when the Knock Outs made their debut, now my fast forward button can't go fast enough.
Fix the frealing opening already it's still crap. No, I'm not difficult to please, just bored. Dude I have been a fan for 31 of my 36 years on this planet, and I really do not want to see the same stuff over and over and over again. On the rare time I do, I buy the dvd. All you're giving me is old production notes from WCW with a fresh slice of moldy cheese on the plate.

Our first match which was by the by is after the 20minute mark; has already started and is between Storm and RVD. Storm sends RVD into the corner, RVD floats over then puts a boot to the face of Storm. RVD uses his roll through/monkey flip to toss Storm across the ring. Storm sent RVD into the other corner but RVD countered, sending Storm off the ring apron with a kick. He then went for a baseball slid, but Storm caught him and slammed him into the rails. RVD used a shoulder block from outside the ropes but Storm countered with a mid rope DDT. He went for a pin but only got a two count. Storm followed this with a vertical suplex, and a rear chin lock in the middle of the mat. RVD fought out of it, and was going off the ropes, Storm tried for a knee to the jaw but RVD grabbed his leg going for a roll up. Only a two count. RVD then used his trademark spinkick before both men started trading fists. Another high spin kick from RVD which gave him a chance to set up for his rolling thunder. Storm managed to come back with a spinning heel kick to the skull and a the eye of the storm. RVD came back with a front slam and his split legged moonsault for the win. Boo.

Homicide vs Rob Terry for the Global title. He's calling himself the Freak? Dude, really? Homicide did not wait, he jumped him as the bell was being rung. Kick to the stomach followed by a chop, did nothing. Much as the next set of chops. Homicide went off the ropes but ended up with a clothesline for his troubles. Terry followed this up with a choke slam that sent Homicide flying across the ring. Homicide then tried for a monkey flip but failed, before Terry got him in a long held press slam. Homicide then got tossed the other end of the ring via a deep hip toss. Homicide tried for a corner move but was caught in a front slam. Terry got the win. What the freal was that? I'm talking the end of the Global match, which had Terry standing there bleeding from a evil harsh chair shot that by the by never took him down, didn't even phase him, but the fact Orlando Jordan came out with I don't even want to know what splattered on him... What the freal is the deal with Jordan? No second thought, I don't want to know at all. Just toast him already.

Knock Outs match... don't care. Tara won the first round getting a key to a locked box she got her spider back . Daffnay won the second round getting a key to a locked box she lost and had to do a strip tease. Velvet Sky won round three got a key to a locked box, she got the open contract to any match. Angelina Love won the final round getting a key to the locked box she won the belt.

Ladder match between Kurt Angle and Mr. Anderson. Anderson jumped Angle, and had him down in the corner where he was stepping on his throat before using a punch/kick combo. The bell was then rung and we see Anderson with Kurt Angle on his shoulders for a drop roll. The ladder was then brought into the ring, as Angle started to show some fight. Anderson then suplexed him onto the ladder. Kurt recovered enough to give Anderson a belly to back suplex on the ladder himself. Kurt then followed it up with a few closed fists before starting to send Anderson into the ladder, but Anderson ducked and reversed it sending Kurt face first into the ladder. Anderson then started up the ladder, but was not high enough as Kurt grabbed him for an Angleslam. Anderson is now outside of the ring on the floor. Kurt was at the top of the ladder, Anderson came back in toppling it and Kurt went over the top rope hit the apron and fell hard onto the floor. Dude that was like a 14 foot drop! The crowd started to chant "holy s**t" which the censor crew could not censor proper. Anderson back up the ladder, somehow Kurt got up and onto the top turnbuckle drop kicking the ladder out from under Anderson. Both men down and with good reason. Kurt back up to his feet with a over head suplex on Anderson. How is he even breathing let alone standing? Kurt placed Anderson on the ladder and went back to the ropes for a top rope moonsault. He picked up Anderson and tossed him shoulder first into the ring post, and started up the ladder again. Anderson the used the chain of Kurt's metal to choke him out. Anderson then climbed up for the key that was hanging there.

Okay I adore Jay Lethal. As Jay Lethal not as Macho Man. Please, please please drop the gimmick. I have been begging you to, nagging you to drop the gimmick for the last year and a half. Just drop the gimmick and be the old Jay Lethal.

Anyone else feel like just watching old episodes of the Trailer Park Boys? or Durham County?
Pope's promo was good. Dude, I will find a way to get your trenchcoat righty-ho righty-ho.

Doug Williams vs Generation Me in a gauntlet match. My money's on Williams as I really don't care much at all for Generation Me. Jeremy started dude two words for you 1) hair 2) cut Williams used an armbar but Jeremy countered causing Williams to go for the ropes to break the hold. Williams then took out the legs of Jeremy sending him into the corner, but Jeremy countered with a moonsault/cross body combo. Williams came back at him with a simple open hand slap getting him against the ropes but Jeremy got a boot up landing it square in Williams face. This he followed up with a outside shoulderblock and a springboard powerbomb planting Williams face first. Williams shook it off and used his chaos theory suplex for the win of this first round.
Second round was Max who used a suicide dive to get into the ring landing on Williams. Max then ducked a clothesline before using a drop kick but only got a two count. Williams was then sent across the ring hitting the one corner then the other as Max went for a scoop slam and a flying leg drop. Williams then out of nowhere used a front choke small package forcing Max to tap. Yay. I like Williams.

Wolfe vs Pope. Wolfe did not wait and ran down the ramp at Pope, but was greeted with a hard fist. Wolfe was thrown into the ring, but still managed to get an upper cut on Pope as he was climbing into the ring, getting the advantage. Pope fought back but was cut short by a knee to the chest followed by Wolfe's flying hammerlock. Pope was placed on the top turnbuckle where upon Wolfe used his double chop setting up for the tower of london but it was countered. They got out of the corner, with Pope using a open palmed thrust. Pope followed that up with his DDE for the win. Then Styles came out of nowhere looking normal for the first time in months knocking into Pope and the camera man who got crushed under everyone.

And the MotorCityMachine Guns! vs Team 3D for the number one contenders spot. Chris Sabin and Brother Ray started off with a collar tie up which Brother Ray turned into a armbar. Sabin countered it reversing it on him. Mr. Sabin Have I nagged yet about the boots? No well consider this me asking what the hell is up with those laces you wear? I know you've been doing the footwear like that for awhile now but ... Brother Ray managed to roll out of it, landing a hard right on Sabin's jaw. Sabin countered with a series of forearmss and kicks, looking like he had things under control, but he didn't. Brother Ray placed one perfectly timed boot to the face sending Sabin hard to the mat. He was going for a second round, but Sabin rolled and got him with a mule kick. Beauty. He backed it up with a springboard cross body but it only got him a near fall. Alex Shelley tagged in and they used a double team move on Brother Ray. Brother Ray came back at Shelley with a vicious chop sending him staggering back and then tagged in Devon. Devon had Shelley down on the mat, using a headbutt to the lower back for added pressure. Shelley was heading for a tag but was cut short when Devon grabbed him slapping on a bear hug. He broke the hold and landed a kick to the jaw of Devon, rocking him. Sabin tagged back in crossing to the far corner with a forearm to Brother Ray before turning his attention back to Devon with a running forearm. Brother Ray came back into the ring, Sabin caught him with a mule kick then went to the top rope for a double drop kick on them both. Brother Ray got to his feet and went charging but Sabin ducked and Brother Ray continued on landing the clothesline on Devon in the corner. Sabin then used a flying kick to the back of the skull on Brother Ray, before turning his attention back on Devon. Double team from him and Shelley on Devon with their stereo kicks. Shelley tagged back in and went off the top rope for a cross body while Sabin held Devon in a neckbreaker. Got only a two count. Brother Ray then from behind with a double clothesline taking both MMG to the mat. He then picked up Sabin in a scoop slam as Devon went to the top rope landing a What's Up on Sabin. Boo. Then Nash and his boys came down to the ring ruining the match. Double Boo. And you can see that Shelley got marked up but it didn't work proper because he had been sweating.

So to sum up my thoughts this week, if you are downloading from iTunes and missing the old TNA like I am, just skip this week and down load the episode from June 18th 2006. Which was a great episode...

How far are you willing to go?

2010-04-08T10:09:00.000-04:00

Working on draft 3 of my novel, and am wondering... would a male masturbation scene be taking it too far?   Would that cross a line that just would destroy the core of the plot?
Hard to say. Some people have already told me my novel is difficult to swallow.   Yeah, I threw good taste out the window the second I started working on the last draft.

And what brought this thought on this raining morning over coffee?

Well to be honest, I'm still waiting for this weeks TNA Impact to be available so I can do the weekly review, and decided to work on one of the main characters while I wait. He needs to be given more personality. That and I had a crazy conversation last night with a buddy about an old match from the Best of the X-Division vol 2. (June 18th 2006 you can find it on iTunes even, 6 man contenders match)

My editor and my friend's mom who read the last draft both feel he's the strongest character in my novel. My Antagonist. My Heel. So now I am just trying to get a better handle on this character, so to speak.

Devil's in my head

2010-04-07T10:17:00.000-04:00

Quoting L.A. Guns from the song "Long Time Dead" from the Vicious Circle album.
Why... cause that's what I am listening to right now... on cassette! Yeah it's that old. And discontinued from what I am told so I have not been able to find it on cd.

Anyway, the 10 of Swords, or as my friend Erin likes to say "The 10 of S words." old SNL skit from like a million years ago when SNL was still worth something. I did a reading this morning, and that damnable card popped up again, and again again and again... you get the idea it's haunting me.
Usually this card is shown as someone laying face down in the gutter with 10 sharp swords/daggers/knives in their back and skull with a large puddle of blood under them. Nice Eh?

Well, actually it is.
It's a very deceiving card, the term don't judge a book by it's cover was made for this card. Yes, it is a card of pain. Pain in the past. This card is a card of balance, forgiveness, self esteem and rebirth. Things are never as bad as they seem. It's a card that is telling you to -roll with it- the situation is over, time to grieve if necessary but relief is now at hand. The end of a cycle and preparing you for the next.

I haven't figured out just what it's screaming at me about today, but I'm sure I will at some point.

Who knew paperwork would have such heavy lifting

2010-04-06T22:25:00.000-04:00

I just ripped apart chapter 1 of the novel. Moved page 9 to page 1, deleted page 2, reduced a character to two sentences in a flashback scene, turned everything between page 3-8 into the flashback scene.

Dude, that's alot of heavy lifting, beat out now from all that jazz. Surprisingly very hungry now too. Nice workout for the mind. And considering you know that the zombies ate my brain there last month it's a big workout.

Psst why did the zombies eat your brain again?

Well Spudgun, remember I said I would schedule sending that email to Mr. Shelley after I let the zombies eat my brain...

Muse me

2010-04-06T10:40:00.000-04:00

Someone left a comment the other day on one of my other posts, asking me what I am looking for in a man. My reply was actually really snotty. Totally asshole of me.
The last 24hours because of a crazy situation of information coming to my attention, information I have to admit I didn't like finding out, I have been thinking.
I've talked about the fact that I need to have a guy in my life or at least a crush in order to be creative. I need a Muse.
I've never admitted it before, but what I want out of a guy is to be his Muse. I've never admitted it before because I never believed I deserved to be seen that way. But it's what I want.
So to answer the person honestly and without venom, I want to inspire a man.

I 'm guessing that is big key to finding the One, my soulmate, (yes remember we've gone over this a million times, I believe in soulmates) he'll have a new creativity when he meets me. I'll be his Muse.

Egotistical - no. Honest for the first time in years - honest to myself anyway.

Is that all I am to you

2010-04-05T23:51:00.000-04:00

I once read on Patricia Kennealy 's blog that everyone is someone's groupie. I don't know if she came up with that or if she was quoting someone else, but I am quoting her.

Well it would seem, everyone else on the planet has a groupie but me. Though it would seem that according to my buddy Patrick (who I would normally call Buddy #P but since he said he hated that code name and I'm pissed at him right now -his real name it is), I am a groupie for our tag team. Really? That's funny, I was always under the impression that groupies either frealed the celebrity or was like a mommy to them. Last time I checked I had done neither for our tag team. This label really upsets me.
It's as if he's saying that I am not good enough to be anything of real value to anyone.
Seriously, if that's how my friends view me, then it's time to pack up completely.

To quote Lynn Redgrave in the movie Midnight "like a mouse running up an elephant's leg with rape in mind." My buddy Patrick said during our conversation "no one notices that mouse." Very true, and I am feeling like that little mouse. Only I've been tossed off landing against a tree shattering my spine and dying in horrible pain.

All I have to say is if there is if the idea is true that everyone is someone's groupie, if I've got any they better stand up and shake the cobwebs off cause it would be nice to know.

What do you mean you missed the plot hole?

2010-04-05T22:08:00.007-04:00

My friend's mom was going over a copy of draft 2 of the novel and she found a plot hole. Large one too at that. My editor did not find this plot hole.
Great wonderful lovely. Like I am not having enough issues with the frealing thing. Now I have to figure out how to fix it, how far back into the story to go and sew up the mistakes.
Someone remind me again why I became a writer? Oh right because it's all I ever wanted to be since I was 3. Right, I knew that. That and well Elvira, and I've already tried and failed at that back in college in the early 1990's.

Some of my art

2010-04-05T16:54:00.000-04:00

Why? Oh god only knows why I am daring to make a bigger hoser out of myself, but I am.
Okay, you're getting a taste of my failures now. And I've failed at everything I have tried my hands at, art, poetry, music, television, plays, films, the only thing I haven't failed at is comedy and that's only cause I haven't tried comedy yet.

This is the one painting I keep getting asked if it's for sale. No it's not. It took me a year to do, and I was not smart enough to right down the mix for the skin colour. There is about 5 different colours in the mix for the dead skin. I call him   "The Incubus"

This is a poem I wrote last year on March 28th 2009 that was turned into a song for a friend's play.

Somehow I died that night
Covered in memories of forgotten times
he spilled the wine
blacked out on a canvass of a better line
coked out and strangled by his own design

seems he loved me not as much as I loved him
seems he loved me not as much as the powered white lines fine
well I died that night
covered in memories of broken rhymes
locked out of moments that should have been mine

I died that night
burned out and battered like a prized fighter in a caged fight
lord knows I gave and I tried
but I somehow died that night

his vision cleared
but left his eyes bloody and wide
his smoke cleared
but left him sweating like a cop was tailing him high
his vision cleared
but I had died that night

seems he loved me not as much as I loved him
seems he loved me not as much as the powered white lines
fine
well I died that night
covered in memories of broken rhymes
locked out of moments that should have been mine

I died that night
I died
I died that night
I died
lord knows I gave and I tried
but somehow I died that night

Here's another poem I wrote back in 2001 under the name Harley Lilith Noir   it's called "Duet"

The partnership is born mist the mass confusion, over screaming the play, playwright, actors
Burning moonlight in their veins, the desire of hot flashes, gel covered lights,
foot -candle-spot
The dance begins, tone on tone, the microphones combine intertwine a duet of mass reality,
voices purge their sorrows, mixing-combining-liquid creamed,
Eyes closed throats thrown open, the final notes nothing but a high pitched scream,
The music's over, microphones recharged as the crowd applaud
clap-whisper-cheer,
Flowers-carnations-roses appear, at their feet, shoes scuffing on their silky petals,
As the partnership dissolves in the nothingness,
Shadows emptiness embracing the night,
Until the next duet -until the theater is filled once more from wall to wall,
Against locked doors

And the poem that Paula, Buddy #P, and everyone I talked about in this post here that everyone wanted me to either send to the guy or post. Called "Stolen Moment" Well, I'll post it and if he reads it great if not ...

Just a stolen moment
A piece of your time
A wordless glance
Maybe I' ll be fine
Your attention I feel the need to seek
Even though I know you are a million miles out of my league
Just a stolen moment
A second of your time
A polite nod
Maybe I' ll be fine
Your attention I feel the need to seek
Even though I know you are a million miles out of my league
What draws me to you I will never truly know
I guess that is part of your charm part of your show
Just a stolen moment
A piece of your time
A silent smile
Maybe I' ll be fine
Your voice the ultimate temptation
Your eyes demonically divine
Just a stolen moment
One half second of your time
It's all I ask as I memorize every fine line your face has to offer
Before you move back into the crowd and continue your day
A glance, a soft smile, a happy wink
I will return your way
To let you know if you ask I will give to you
Just a stolen moment

So there you go. Pieces of me in all my morbid glamour

You know those days when you feel like a fake

2010-04-05T11:18:00.000-04:00

Yeah, it's one of those. I just had to recommend a book that I thought was dren.
Book club journal thingie, with more nonsense then anything else in it. There are hundreds of these things on the market all designed to make your reading experience more orgasmic then it truly is.
I've got one from a few years ago that is just a basic to the point book club journal. A section for your to read list, a section for what the book club has read and their comments, with a few quotes thrown in for the cutesy floweriness of it.
This one today, that I had to recommend, I just wanted to say don't waste your time or money. But I could not, so instead I just gave the list of what it offers.
That makes me a fake today. I don't like being a fake.

The Sex files... I don't get it

2010-04-03T11:53:00.000-04:00

Okay, I was just going around the internet, and the topic of the day seems to be ... bedazzling your nedan.

What? Huh? Why?

So this proves just how unsexy, unpopcultured I am, cause I think that is stupid. Very stupid; pointless even.   I just don't understand the whole desire to wax/shave everything off to look like a porn start to begin with, and now to dress it up with fake gems to make it look less bare.

If you don't like the look of a naked nedan, don't get the Brazilian.   Simple yes?
I guess I'm just way too 1950's for my own good. Or whatever.

What you learn from Oprah

2010-04-02T12:51:00.000-04:00

I used to be a complete devotee of Oprah. God knows how much I spent between 2001 and 2008 on her magazines every month. I even signed up for every newsletter her website had.
When I got rid of cable back in 2006, it was one show I missed... for awhile. Well, I never canceled my email newsletters I still get those every day.
And today's lists this as Poetry Month.

Poetry Month! Really? the girl says in her best Miz impression. REAALLLYYY?
Remember few days ago I was jammering on about how I had written a poem a full year ago for a guy and did not have the guts to send it, and how I needed a sign from the universe... well damn it janet. I think that might be a sign. Maybe.

Seriously, poetry is one of the most intimate things you can give someone. I'm serious here. There isn't another form of creativity or gifts that are more personal then a poem. Yes, poetry and lyrics go hand in hand, they are the same thing after all, and many people don't think of music as intimate, but trust me it is. When you are moved by a great song, or energized by your favourite band, think about the words, the voice the way you react.

No, I'm still too much a coward to give the guy the poem, but remember this, Jim Morrison of the Doors was a master at both. Many called him Dionysus in human form, and Dionysus was the god of both poetry and music.

Follow me.

Sex appeal What makes you melt?

2010-04-01T15:20:00.007-04:00

I used a screen capture for this post

In season 6 of SATC, Carrie is talking about Berger, and what she calls the "zas-zas-zu" that little gesture that makes your stomach flip every time you see your crush.

For me, it's a laugh or smile or smirk. Same simple little gesture but with three different results.
Or one result if you really want to know. Me melting completely.

You've heard me talk on here before about Mr. Shelley's smile/smirk/laugh. And you know I dig comedians. Rik Mayall is one of my all time favourites. But it's not just the movement of the lips, it's the attitude that comes with it. The way a guy's eyes will light up when he's smiling, the little laugh lines that dig into his skin. I've said before about Sheamus having a fabulous smile, which lights up the place. That said, men need to smile more. Specially wrestling Heels.
Maybe it's that smirk all bad boys seem to be able to pull off with just the right amount of sexy abandon, or the innocence that a real smile can add to a guy who normally is the shy quiet one.

The fact that alot of men smile out of nerves when they blush, it adds to the idea that they are all yours. Even when they're not, or for that matter not that innocent.

Which brings me to the smirk. That little sideways smile usually accompanied by a slight nod and light grunt. Always leaves me wondering what's that guy thinking?
Dangerous. Very very dangerous. A properly timed smirk, can be as welcome an invitation as a properly timed kiss. And just the right dash of mystery can send a swoon through me.

I don't know about anyone else, but for me a simple smile and a willingness to laugh is always a turn on.

This was suppose to be a Sex and the City moment but once again I got distracted by a beautiful man.

Life should be about food, laughter and bad camera work always.

Dear Thunder Bay TNA Fans An Open Letter

2010-04-01T09:08:00.000-04:00

Dear TB TNA FANS:

I know you are out there, my hits tracker tells me that you are on the hunt for TNA coming to Thunder Bay. Guess what, I want that too!
So here's the deal, leave a comment and help me in bringing the X-Division to Thunder Bay.
The more people who ask, the better the chance of us getting a full on card of X-Division.
If you're worried about being shy, no need, I have no shame and will be the loud mouthed redhead screaming on your behalf.
By the amount of people who were crammed into the front doors of the Fort William Gardens last week for wrestling tickets, it's more then obvious that we are starving for real wrestling.
Okay Thunder Bay TNA Fans, let's put a call into the darkness and get some X-Division to our little city.

Love Always Ardeth Blood
BlindTag.com

Music Break.... Adam Cohen

2010-03-31T19:45:00.000-04:00

Look what I found while tripping the net for cargo lint

His self titled cd from 1998 is still one of my all time favourites. Hard to believe these vids are 12 years old. They totally hold up.

I got Quouted -Good or Bad?

2010-03-31T17:10:00.000-04:00

Well, bloody hell Vim, it's a Marshall! - Comic Strip Presents More Bad News A Heavy Metal Nightmare

Get this, remember my rant the other day about the whole Mommy Bloggers thingie.
Well, I got quoted. I did. And it was by someone I have never heard of before! Spiffy very spiffy.

I'll link to them cause that's what you do. And I stand firm behind my words. I believe that all press is good press.

Some evil to your head

2010-03-30T23:22:00.001-04:00

Quoting Artificial Joy Club song Psychic Man for that opening title.

Okay, so I have said on this monster mash over a year ago that I had started trying to learn belly dancing. Trying being the key word. Why I am not getting too far with it, and there for no vid of me yet at it, has alot to do with my shoulder/ribs and back.

Remember the car accident I had back on Sept 1st 2006, it mangled my entire right side from my waist to my shoulder. And well I have that nasty back issue since I was 10. But anyway, I started up again with the trying to learn belly dance. Seems when I am not trying I seem to be able to make a hoser out of myself by half way dancing.

Let me set the photo for you shall I. When I think about doing the moves, my zombie eaten brain can't seem to get my stupid body to move, but when I am standing around just waiting for a bus with my iPod on, well I end up having people stare at me like I am having a fit or something.

Yes that's right my Spudguns, I dance when I am not even thinking about trying to. And I'm sure that I make for a fairly interesting - to say the least- idiot of myself without even trying to.

So the message of the day is .... Don't even think about it. Move, groove and be on intuition.

Which brings me to my next little mouth dropping.

I have shown my ability for poetry. I was published years ago when still in high school, and college and a few years after that, in local papers and an underground American mag (Macabre Manse Best of Gothica and Beyond) And I've added bits and pieces on this bloggy-blog over the years.
Well, last year I had written a piece for a guy. I never gave it to him, totally chickened out cause I'm a total coward. But I did show it off to a few of my friends and their husbands. Wanting mostly the opinion of the very straight married guys. The reactions were like this....

50 year old Female friend : "If he doesn't scoop you up right on the spot he's a looser who doesn't deserve you."
Her husband : " That's beautiful. Send it now send it now. That's just beautiful"
Her 20 something year old son : " You have a nice way with words. I could turn that into a song."
The High Priestess : "KIM!!!! SEND IT!!! He's going to love it"
High Priestesses husband : he had nothing to say cause he cried. I made a 35 year old straight man cry with my writing.

Well, I am a coward and just could not send it. Freal, I don't even know if he's into poetry. That would be a big bad had I sent it to this guy I don't even really know, and find out he doesn't even like poetry right... right?

And the point is still go with your gut on things. My intuition was to write the pretty little poem and send it to him. Here I am a year later and it's just too late. This is one fear I don't think I can face. And no, I am not going to post that one here. It's too revealing, too innocent, too raw, too naked. No, it's not a dirty smutty poem either, just very ... sugary. Not the me I have let you all see on this blog. It's more Kimberly less Ardeth.

I just can't seem to get it out of my head to send it to him. The universe needs to start sending me some clear signs cause I'm as mixed up emotionally as a girl can get.

My Thoughts on TNA Impact for March 29th 2010

2010-03-30T15:37:00.006-04:00

I used screen capture for this post

iTunes Canada had it at a good time today. Lovely

We start with crap. Why the frealing hoofers do we need a damned recap every week? I don't. And I'm sure the editing crew have better things to do, like create a new opening... Oh my god I'm scared now. Lethal I love you to death but put some pants on... and the crowd chanted "fire Bubba" I agree completely.
Then Eric Young (Mr. Yummy in my world) got the 5 minute beat down from Nash and his guys.

Doug Williams/Brian Kendrick vs Kaz/Moore. I would have liked to have seen Kaz and Williams in a singles match or on the same team. Kendrick looks like he's wearing a diaper. Moore started by pulling Williams into the ring and putting him face first into the corner. Followed it with a kick and a series of punches. Kaz then tagged in and they used a double team move on Williams. Kaz followed up with a scoop slam and a sling shot leg drop. He went for a pin but only got a two count. Williams then pulled the leg out from under him, getting enough time to tag in Kendrick. Kaz gave him two deep arm drags, before whipping him hard into the far turnbuckle. Kaz then used his swinging double drop kick. Kendrick then pulled the ref in the way, which gave Williams a chance to run in and cheat. Williams then tagged in, where upon he used a hard knee to the face of Kaz following it by a scissors stomp. I've seen better scissors stomps this was a little on the clumsy side Kendrick tagged back in, and started to work on the neck of Kaz. Kaz managed to fight out, then both went for a running shoulder block and both went down to the mat. Both Williams and Moore tagged in. Moore went wild with a series of drop kicks and a spin kick on Williams before using a hurricanrana. He got a near fall but Kendrick broke up the pin. Kaz came in and they double teamed Kendrick then turned their attention back to Williams. Then it looks like Williams blindtagged Kendrick in and Moore got the pin on kendrick.

Pope came out ... now before the commercial he was in his gear - I'm still waiting for someone in the X-Division to snag me that wicked trenchcoat- then when he came to the ring right after commercial he was in his street clothes... Editing team didn't I tell you that you had more important things to do No cookies No cakes and No dinner for you who's checking the continuity
Then suddenly we were watching a piece from the Blair Witch Project... oh my bad it's the return of Samoa Joe ... sort of.
Then Orlando Jordan did some creepy Cirque du Soleil thing that just made me scared.

Knock Outs match first blood between Daffney and Tara.... don't care but Tara won

Jeff Jarrett vs A.J. Styles. They start with a collar tie up, Styles tossing Jarrett across the ring. Another collar tie up with Styles locking on a side headlock, then turning it into a armbar swinging around into another side headlock-snapmare. Styles went for another armbar but Jarrett countered. Styles went off the ropes then used an armdrag-hiptoss on Jarrett. Once more with the side headlock into a running shoulder block from Styles, then Jarrett tripped up Styles before giving him an arm toss. He used a series of upper cuts on Styles before an inverted atomic drop. He then tossed Styles over the top rope. Back in the ring, Styles attacked with a double axehandle, and went for a flying headbutt in the corner but missed. Jarrett turned the match in his favour with a kick to the back of the skull knocking Styles to the mat. Styles then countered with a kneebreaker. Which he followed with the figure four leg lock. Jarrett broke the hold and slapped one of his own on Styles. Some issues outside the ring for a few minutes. Back in the ring, Styles had a modified choke hold on Jarrett. He broke out of it and went for a sunset flip, but Styles managed to stop it in midmove. Styles used a high knee drop then continued to work on the neck of Jarrett. He had Jarrett in the corner, face first in the top turnbuckle, a chop to the chest, snapmare and back to working on the neck in the modified choke hold. Jarrett broke the hold and sent Styles flying in what looked like a 7 foot high back body drop. Needless to say, Styles came down hard on the mat. He followed up with a series of running clotheslines and and a back drop suplex. Jarrett then used a double underhook but it only got him a near fall. Jarrett was going for a top rope move, but Styles caught him in midair, turning it into a flip. Styles then used his trademark flying forearm but it only got him a two count. Styles was setting up for the styles clash but it got reversed into a flapjack. The ref got knocked out of the ring, and Styles was sent into the ringpost face first. Jarrett then used his trademark Stroke off the second rope. Styles put the styles clash on him and the ref was brought back in giving Styles the win. You could see the blood pouring from Styles' hand from where he hit the post few minutes before. Blood everywhere... You so can not tell me he didn't break that hand

Oh my god the return of Jay Lethal! He went against Beer Money Inc in a handicap match.
Roode jumped in and started it off, but Lethal ducked, giving him a few punches before Storm ran in hitting him from behind. They double teamed him for the next little bit, before tossing him in a massive back body drop hard. Lethal then rolled out of the ring, but Roode followed and started right back in with a series of punches. He got thrown hard into the steel steps shoulder first. They used a double team suplex, and it looked like Lethal was starting to turn the match around when he got another double team move slapped on him. But somehow Lethal got Roode in a small package for the win.

Wolfe vs Pope. Now the Pope is in his gear. Wolfe barely waited for the bell before blind siding Pope with a forearm to the neck. Wolfe then put him in a modified necktie slamming him back onto the mat. Pope countered it by rolling him over, into a chicken-wing. They then went against the ropes, with Wolfe using a back elbow to break the hold before using an upper cut staggering Pope. Wolfe used what looked like a figure four but not really, pushing on the one knee of Pope, but Pope was able to roll him over reversing it. Wolfe then sent Pope face first into the top two turnbuckles then began to work on the left shoulder of Pope. Wolfe spent way too much time showing off. Pope managed to fight back with a series of axehandles, an inverted atomic drop and a flying shoulder block. Wolfe was going for his corner to corner move but Pope slid out of the way, giving him an open hand palm thrust. Wolfe then used a steel chain for a cheap shot and got the pin.

The final match of the night was a steel cage with Eric Young teaming with two guys I don't care for vs Nash and his guys. ....

Okay, people I read the spoiler sheets from another fan site this week, and this show did not match up with anything. The spoiler sheet had a MMG/Team 3D match which I am guessing was used for a web show or was the dark match or something cause It was Not on my iTunes download. Not too mention everything is out of order compared to the spoiler sheet's list of matches. Again, I have to ask who's job is it to check the continuity?

Next week special start time 8pm Est

An Award

2010-03-30T11:46:00.002-04:00

Whoo-Hoo! Andrew and the Aluminsidings first blog award.
Nice. Beauty even.

Rules are

1- Thank the person who gave it
2- Tell 7 things about you
3- Give it on to 15 bloggers
4- Let them know you picked them

Well Okay Thank you Paula over on WWE GIRL for this award

7 things about me....
A) I like black olives on my pizza
B) One of my favourite actors is Stanley Tucci
C) The Tea Party's cd Edges of Twilight from 1995 is currently in my dvd player
D) I still want to meet wrestler Eric Young
E) I always wanted to be Darth Vader when playing Star Wars when my cousins and I were little but always got stuck being Princess Lea cause I was the only girl
F) I love movies with sword fights
G)I really am not much for chocolate chip cookies at all

Passing the award on to 15 people. I can't think of too many at the moment.

1) Magaly Guerrero at Pagan Culture
2) Austen Blog
3) Maggie Holbik at Crystal Clear Coaching

Menopause. You're kidding right

2010-03-29T19:11:00.000-04:00

Crying for no reason check
Angry for no reason check
Insomnia check
Headaches for no reason check
Memory loss for no reason check
Extremely painful periods check

So, it would seem that the universe took me serious when I said before that I was praying for early menopause. I asked for a Alex Shelley look alike too but the universe hasn't taken me serious on that now has it.
Dude, I'm 36; this isn't fair! Man, this sucks. Oh but don't worry cause it could be a full ten years of the pre-menopause part. Ten years! of this hell? It's no secret that I have zero interest in having kids, but really; the idea of the choice being taken away, not fair. Yes I'm whining now. This has already been going on for 3 years.
Yes, seems the car accident (the surgery I needed after the accident actually) put into motion the early stages of Menopause. Or so it would seem. It's one of those crazy things that you can't really put a shelf life on. But, I've got over half the symptoms of early menopause. Over half!

So, basically what is wrong with me isn't really WRONG with me as much as EARLY.
At least we know why I've been having the unexplained skull shattering headaches.

But the universe is a cruel bitch, cause what else is it doing to me, it's throwing me to the mommies.

All my friends are mommies
When I went to Edmonton in the fall of 2008 I spent the full two weeks in the middle of Butterfly's Mommy and Me group just surrounded by the mommies and their kids.
All the mommy bloggers that I seem to run into, it's like they are haunting me
Suddenly the mommy movie has become a genre all it's own. (Motherhood was on sale previewed at Blockbuster today too when I went there)
The Empress, 9 of Pentacles, 3 of Pentacles in tarot are popping up like madness in all my readings lately.

So, now I am wondering if the universe is setting me up for ... do I even want to think it? I have to wonder if I would even make a good mommy? All I know is that if The Fates have it instore for me then no matter what I want or feel or think; it will happen. Well then, whomever my soulmate is, he's got about another 3 years if he wants kids, to show up in my life. Cause if I've already spent the last 3 in pre-menopause then I've only got about another 4 years roughly before I'm a Crone.

Then there is all the talk about what kind of mommy they seem to be. I'd be the Addams Family mom for sure. Let my son (I refuse to believe I'd ever have a girl ) run around in a cape and fangs watching Mona the Vampire cartoons all day eating Count Chocola by the handful with a stuffed bat for a favourite toy.

I have a thing for stuffed bats okay

Missing Photos

2010-03-29T12:21:00.003-04:00

Seems photos are missing all across Blogger.

This is a massive issue. I know it freaked me out at first, caused a panic and I even updated my browser but .... Just have to wait it out.

Why am I still red?

2010-03-28T17:22:00.006-04:00

I just spent the last hour bleaching out my hair. I should be white, but no, I am still red.
Dude, I just want to be ... well not red.
The last 4 times I've tried to bleach out it has not worked, and one of those was at a stylist. They used their industrial strength colour and it did nothing.

This today was a bottle job and I'm still red. A shade and a half lighter towards blonde, but red none the less.

What's going on here? There was one stylist a few years ago who could bleach me out to a perfect white, he's not around anymore. Moved. Damn it!

The last time I was at the stylist a year ago, she asked me what my natural colour was. I was my natural colour at that time, auburn red. She made a face and took in a deep suck of breath saying that it would be impossible to get much more then a lighter red as auburn are almost indestructible . Her words not mine.
So it would seem she was not joking.

So the universe wants me to stay a redhead does it? I can only guess that means that my soulmate must dig reds.

Meanwhile in a messy room across town part 5

2010-03-26T21:58:00.006-04:00

I used screen capture for this post

So you heard me say this afternoon that I am having writers block again.
Not good.

Well, I was watching a match from the 2009 Against All Odds ppv and suddenly I had a scene.

Oh yeah, I quickly hit the pause button on the iTunes and opened the novel again, and wrote a scene where one of my leads is sitting there eating cereal.

You're thinking What? how does a ppv match equal you thinking of cereal?

Oh yeah man. True grit on this one. It was the tights. For whatever reason, my brain thought "bright sugary puffed cereal everywhere" Just a big bowl of Fruity-Os. You get the picture?

Between the green and yellow in Mr. Shelley's tights and the neon orange and day-glo green in Mr. Young's tights, I started thinking of coloured cereal.

Why I keep connecting Mr. Shelley with food I have no idea. It's some odd domestic desire or something.
But, yeah, dude I got an entire paragraph written because of that spark of thought. So, um... thanks boys for breaking down my writers block.

Friday Noon :14

2010-03-26T12:14:00.003-04:00

I'm sitting here my mind stuck but spinning in circles at the same time.

I need a new ending for my novel and I'm just hitting a blank wall. Well, more like a large grey one with a rocky texture. Or more on the point, a dirty once white one with little thumbtack holes and grease splatters. Cause I am in the kitchen with my laptop as I sit here staring at the last paragraph of my novel.

Help!

I'm starting to begrudge my characters. This might be a problem as I still have to deal with them for at least another year.

My ending sucks. Just blows goat.

I keep thinking of that scene in the movie Stranger then Fiction when Emma Thompson is standing over the edge of the building and you realize she's not really.

Yeah it's one of those days.

Oh my Now My mom is worried about him.

2010-03-25T21:23:00.007-04:00

I used screen capture for this post

You all remember this post ... yes?

Well, it doesn't stop there. It should but it doesn't.
I was on the phone with my mother, talking about my day and how the review was finally done for this week, and I mentioned that the fan sites are saying that the show is suppose to be changing time slots in a few weeks. Mom said "That's the beginning of the end for TNA isn't it? Cause when a television show gets the shuffle it's all down hill from there on."
That is the general thought right now on the fan sites/spoiler sheets. I am not thinking that way, trying to stay positive and believe that TNA will make it. Then my mom said something that created a bit of an uncomfortable and very strange few minutes.

Mom: "What will that Alex guy do if the show goes do you think?"

Me : "Where the hoofers did that come from? And what does that have to do with anything?"

Mom: "He'd be out of a job wouldn't he? Think he'd show up on the other one... the other company with Randy Orton " (note mom has a soft spot for Randy Orton )

Me : "I don't know. To be honest, I hope not. To me that would be like selling your soul. "

Yes, my mother was worried about Mr. Shelley's career. My Mom! This just reached a new level of creepy. First my mom thinks Mr. Shelley is cute ( but we can not blame her for that as who with eyes doesn't) now, she's actually worried he won't have a job if TNA sinks. What's going on here?

Does my mom know something about my favourite wrestler that I don't?
Does she have him on speed dial or something? Should I worry? I'm starting to wonder.

My mom is not even a wrestling fan, she can point out who she thinks is cute and that's about as far as it goes. So for her to make a comment about wither or not Mr. Shelley will have a career in the wrestling business if TNA ends... I am not sure what to say on that, other then Mr. Shelley you have done something no one else on the planet has been able to do. You've made my mother give a damn about something that I'm interested in. Hands down, you're the man.

Told you it got to a whole new level of creepy.

My Thoughts on TNA Impact for March 22 2010

2010-03-25T10:09:00.010-04:00

iTunes Canada was 3 days late this week. It did not seem to be on Spike Tv official website all week either.

We open with some massive retardedness (that even a word?) Bishoff playing guitar. I'm not big on musicians. Once you've dated four or five watching a man play guitar losses its flavour. Bishoff, I do not want to know a frealing thing about you shut up. Was there camera issues on the show this week? Cause my download is hic-upping.

Knock Out tag match.... I don't care

And then I just fast forwarded till I saw Tomko in the ring. He went up against Rob Terry for the Global belt. Tomko did not wait for the bell, just slapped a large forearm up against his temple. Followed it with a running shoulder block that did nothing. Terry answered with a hard short clothesline of his own knocking Tomko down. Tomko then was tossed from one corner to the other, but managed to get an elbow up making Terry stumble. Terry countered with a hard slam press then followed that with a spinning kick. He then used a choke slam for the win. When the hell did Tomko end up being the jobber of the week?

What's with all the flashbacks? Dude, my memory might be bad, but it's not that bad that I need you to recap what happened fifteen minutes ago. Stop it! Editing crew no more cookies for you.

Does JB look out of sorts to anyone else? Loose the suit it makes you look ... uncomfortable in your own skin. I liked the old JB.

Jeff Jarrett vs Mick Foley with a looser is fired match. Beer Money Inc as the double special refs. Storm stayed in the ring while Roode was outside. We started with a collar tie up, turned into a side headlock on Jarrett, with Foley then going off the ropes landing a clothesline on him. Jarrett down. Another side headlock on Foley, he countered and pushed Jarrett into the ropes, landing a back elbow on his jaw as he came off them. Jarrett down. Foley only got a two count. Jarrett used a sunset flip but Foley countered with a simple clap of the knees breaking the hold. Foley used a backslide for a near fall, following it up with a series of hard right hands before tangling Jarrett up in the ropes for a modified clutch. Foley then was going for the double armed DDT, but Jarrett broke out of it, going for his Stroke, Foley countered. Alot of back and forth in this match so far. We then went outside the ring with Foley slamming Jarrett face first into the guardrails. Up the ramp and Jarrett used a few upper cuts getting the match turned around. Jarrett then suplexed Foley on the ramp. Back in the ring and it's all Jarrett with a series of hard punches. Roode is the inring ref now. Jarrett went for a cover but only got a near fall. Jarrett then used a DDT on Foley but it was only a two count again. Foley somehow managed to turn it back around into his favour with the double armed DDT this time, but it was only a two count as Jarrett used the ropes for a break. Foley then used the sock and a rear naked choke but Jarrett got out. A steel chair was brought in, and Jarrett used the Stroke on the chair for the win.

Did I hear right ? Moving the company forward? No you're not. You've moved it about twenty paces backwards. You say you listen to the fans, but you're not. I've been telling you for months what I think, and I'm just screaming into the darkness aren't I?

Matt Morgan the evil druid vs Hernandez. Morgan came down to the ring with both tag team belts in his hands, and Hernandez slammed him from behind knocking him to the ramp. They made their way to the ring by Hernandez punching Morgan the whole time. He tossed Morgan into the ring . Dude what was the look in Hernandez's eyes? He then knocked him out of the ring with a running shoulder block. It was one brutal attack, slamming Morgan face first into the ring apron then the stairs before using an upper cut and a double sledge handle. Back in the ring now, and Hernandez used the t-shirt toss sending Morgan the full length of the ring. Morgan finally turned it into his favour by tossing Hernandez out of the ring. Hernandez then dragged Morgan out of the ring, going for a slam against the ring post but Morgan ducked sending Hernandez into it. Morgan then used the carbon footprint against him smashing him into the ringpost. The match was called and medics were brought out. At this point I have to say, that it was reported on another fan site that Hernandez suffered what looks to be a career ending injury.

Beer Money Inc had a match against two guys I don't care about so... sorry about your damned luck.

The whole staff at BlindTag.com hope that Hernandez recovers quickly.

Food Laughter and ....

2010-03-24T18:10:00.009-04:00

One of my favourite movies in the last year, has been Ramen Girl. There is a line in that film that talks about how when you feed someone something you made, you are feeding them part of you. Part of your soul.

That is so true.

Grandma Perry, Aunt Winn to so many people, believed that. She's most likely staring down at me from the big kitchen party she's at tisk tisk tisking me for my lack of food... grace.
Before I had become a vegetarian, which she would have tisk tisk tisked me for too as she believed there was nothing wrong with a good steak, I used to make a really great pot of Oxtail soup. Grandma's recipe of course. I actually miss that. I do not miss having rotting flesh in my stomach and intestines, nor do I miss the smell of meat cooking, but I do miss making things like that. Grandma's main recipes.
Hence the bread the old fashioned way last week. Which you can catch a video of me doing on my cooking blog.

I can't tell you what's "gotten into me" as of late. Why I am obsessed lately with cooking. I don't know. It's not even a passion of mine. I admit, I have thrown myself into this to have something to do. Something to keep me busy while I waited for my Editor to get back to me with all her notes so that I could start the next draft of the novel.

Just something to keep me busy.

Well, the neighbours have been sniffing around the door. Literally. For the first time ever I had the landlord's daughter ask what smelled so damn good. I had made pasta and mushroom sauce. But just between you and me, I am the only one in this building who DOES cook. Everyone else has the delivery guys on speed dial. I'm not kidding. There is a revolving door policy here for every single delivery guy in town. Every night three different delivery cars will show up, and I know this cause I do not drive so my parking space is the spot de jour for the pizza/sub sandwich/Chinese/pasta/kfc take away delivery guys. I live in a fourplex. Myself, the landlord, his daughter and the teen aged couple who live in the apartment below me.

And the point to all this rambling... I told you last week there was going to be a shift in attitude on this blog.
One of the wishes I have for myself this year, is to find someone to cook for. Yes, I know I need a husband.
I've had a bad attitude towards food most of my life. My weight has been a sore issue with me. I've been as large as 300 pounds and as unhealthy as 119 pounds. Been Bulimic, and looked at food as a dirty idea. It's a fear I have.
It took years to get to a healthy 135 pounds. Then the car accident happened and I shot back up to 225. Here it is almost 4 years later and I am sitting comfortably at 160. Unable to work out since the car accident and cooking again. Vegetarian now, but cooking none the less. My attitude towards life now is I'm here. I survived something I should not have (the car accident ) and if lugging around an extra 25 pounds for the rest of my life is the trade off, it's a small price to pay.

This year, is about facing fears. I'm 36. I don't have time anymore for self doubts.

Life should be about food, laughter, and bad camera work always.

There's no happy ending

2010-03-23T23:09:00.006-04:00

*deep sigh*

There is no happy ending.

My friend's mom, whom I respect completely, hated my novel. It made her uncomfortable.

Characters I created, that I spent the last year working on, pouring my soul into made her want to puke.

There is no happy ending. I put my lead character- Protagonist- through hell. I put my Antagonist through hell. The same hell actually. And one character I was told is redundant. The character of Cole, who is based on my buddy Joshua, my friend's mom and my editor by the by, feel that the story is being blocked by having him in there.

I can't seem to win.

Okay here is the deal. I'm not as creative as I wish I was. I need a guy in my life to feed the creativity. I need to be in a relationship, or at the very least crushing on someone. This blog over the past year proof of that. I mean, man really the most interesting posts on this frealing thing have nothing to do with me and everything to do with either the bad dates I had over the summer or my addiction to Mr. Shelley and Mr. Sabin.

So what do I do now? I'm trudging through the re-writing of draft 3 and my heart is no longer in it. I have been working towards this point for the last 15 years.

15 years! Since the first time I had some of my poems published in high school. Yes, I am that old. Most writers have cranked out four or five full length novels by this age and not still struggling to get noticed.

I got asked today ironically "what would Jane do?"
What Would Jane Do? Well, I think Jane Austen would have laughed. She would have laughed and then dug up a pile of potatoes. Cause by this age, she had 4 of her novels published and had already turned down one offer of marriage. See, massively ahead of me in a time when women couldn't own anything.

What did I do? I drank 3 glasses of wine and cried.

Hey Thunder Bay I got my ticket did you?

2010-03-22T10:04:00.003-04:00

Doors opened at 930am at the Gardens today for Great North Wrestling tickets.
I got there at 845am and there was a line up to the door already. Big news wrestling, even bigger that Vampiro and Kevin Nash are on the card.

The poster said $15. So imagine my shock when I heard the guy at the front of the ticket line say out loud "How Much?" He had just ordered 8 floor ring side seats. The price $480. Yeah my Spudguns, ring side were $60

Half the people downsized to the cheap seats up in the nosebleed section but us die hards we pulled the lint out of our pockets to pay for our tickets.

All I have to say is Mr. Nash you better be worth it. I have not paid that much for a ring side seat in over twenty years. Neither have most of the regulars who always crush into the building like this for our floor seats.

Since All Silliness Ends Tomorrow

2010-03-21T14:10:00.005-04:00

I used screen capture for this post

I had to get one more Mr. Shelley post in.

I loved this episode (Nov 27th 2008 Turkey Bowl) It seriously takes a brave man to be willing to do something like this on international television.
Also proves he's got a wicked sense of humour.

So as my last crazed fan post, cause tomorrow all the silliness stops when we hit my birth.... William Shatner day. (I share William Shatner's birthday so tomorrow is William Shatner day around here) ... so as my last post as a crazed fan totally unmistakably gaga over Mr. Shelley, I have to ask....

.... what's for dinner?

Oh come on you were thinking it.

Meanwhile in a messy room across town part 4

2010-03-19T21:45:00.007-04:00

Got the Alice Cooper on, sitting here feeling like I should be writing.
Yes, the whole cycle has started again. I have about 4 different ideas rolling around in this brain of mine, and have no idea which one to play with.
I should be working on the next draft of my current novel, but I'm waiting for all the notes from my Editor before I do.

So, in the mean time... I made a Chick Pea Curry for dinner. I've never made curry before so this was interesting. I did not have any Cumin, instead I added extra Turmeric. My kitchen has not smell this good in god knows how long.
I think I just want to boil Turmeric instead of burning incense for rituals and meditation from now on, it smelled that good.

If we broke down the recipe of me it would look something like this

Writing (books and blogs)
Wrestling
Vampires
Food

I'm wondering if I can combine all those somehow? Don't ask, I don't know. I'm trying I am really. It's late and now I'm sort of babbling like a goof. But that's okay, cause come Monday I have to stop everything. I do.
Come Monday, I am that much closer to another decade. Yes, the big evil happens on Monday.

I turn 36 on Monday. I know all my silliness over Mr. Shelley and Mr. Sabin has to stop. I will officially be too old. I have no idea what I am going to do with myself once Monday comes.
I really will have nothing to talk about but my book and cooking.
God, I will go insane! Like honestly, for real insane. Unlike the light drizzle of creepy-chic I am now, and ... well can't someone just hire me for comedy? Then you know I could continue being the total freak I am... right? No? Yes? Maybe?

You upset my mom

2010-03-19T13:50:00.004-04:00

The other day when I was at mom's, she was on Facebook. As always. And got very upset.
My cousin Jessica wrote something on her status.

Now, I know I normally give people a stage name for this blog, but damn it, this little snot faced (I so want to use the c -word right now ) deserves to be called out.

She keeps talking about taking pills, stealing, drugs and sex with her older boyfriend. Did I mention she's 14.
No?
Yeah, she's driving my aunt insane, and scaring the dren out of my mom. What kind of moron posts photos of herself on Facebook with a bottle in one hand and a massive joint in the other when it's clear they are an under aged child.
Oh right my cousin.

She's acting out.
Um yeah. The question is why?
And the answer to that is... my aunt just moved them out of Winnipeg.

Her brothers all had the same attitude and one even landed in jail. So my aunt moved the family out of the influenced area. Now, my cousin is 50 times worse.

So, I wrote the little ... an email in Facebook. Told her that she's freaked out my mom which was bad enough, and that she is a self centered selfish spoiled brat.

Okay, I just needed to vent. I know giving her blog time is counter productive, but maybe my aunt will see this and get Jessica into rehab or something.

Yummy ...

2010-03-18T12:21:00.005-04:00

Please head over to comedy central... er um I mean My Newfie Kitchen to see the latest episodes of my cooking videos.

Episode 2 is my challenge to the MMG
Episode 3 is my Ugly Ramen
Episode 4 is making homemade Bread

They're funny funny things.
Life should be about food, laughter and bad camera work. Always.

The sun has faded

2010-03-16T23:18:00.006-04:00

I used screen capture for this post.

I will hope that someone has finally gotten the hint with my screaming every week, that the MotorCityMachine Guns! do not get enough air time.
I love them. My Spudguns love them. It's why we're here. To be the sick puppies we are and get crazy when we see them.

I have been saying for months that they need to have the tag team titles. And if I don't see those belts around their tiny waists in the next few weeks; someone is getting an angry letter. (Mr. Sabin, Mr. Shelley) Oh yeah, you don't want to make a Canadian angry cause we will have you neck deep in paperwork. Plus the paper cuts sting like hellfire, and you can't hold your Tim Hortons roll up the rim to win coffee cup proper.

I was glad to finally see them have a promo on this weeks episode (March 15th 2010) cause it has been 3 whole months since they did a promo. Little short for my taste, but then again I could watch them read the lyrics of a Headstones cd. Or you know cook.

Hey... you know how alot of novels go to audio book; well, do you think in a million years from now when my novel finally gets published and sees the bright neon lights of a book store Mr. Shelley will do the voice reading of it? (actually things are on course enough that it might be out by next year this time)

My Thoughts on TNA Impact for March 15th 2010

2010-03-16T17:54:00.011-04:00

I used screen capture for this post.

iTunes Canada had it at a decent time this week.

I still hate the opening credits. You have one shot of the MMG and it's in the uber speed, which you can only see on iTunes with pause. No cookies for the editing team. None.

We open with A.J. Styles.... now you're just doing the bad earrings to bug the snot out of me.
Why the freal is that painted waste of flesh on my screen? Yes I am the only wrestling fan on the planet who frealing hates that painted up freak. I could rant on but...

I get it, now I know why Mr. Shelley and Mr. Sabin are too thin, the food service gets destroyed before them or any of the other X-Division guys can have supper. I never picked up on that before with the million times a food fight breaks out.

Team 3D vs Nasty Boys/Jimmy Hart. ....bored now. Team 3D brought back in Brother Runt. Nasty Boys cheated for the win.

Mr. Anderson/Wolfe vs Kurt Angle/Pope. Angle and Wolfe started it off. Collar tie up into a chickenwing which was revised by Angle who took down Wolfe in a flip. It was countered by Wolfe, but Angle used a deep armdrag on him. Mr. Anderson tagged in with a series of stomps. Wolfe tagged back in, having Angle in the corner. Angle fought out and used a belly to belly suplex. Pope tagged in with a short clothesline, short running back elbows and an over head toss. Pope went for a cover but Anderson broke it up. Angle came in and put an Angle slam on Anderson and went for one on Wolfe but Wolfe countered, just as Pope grabbed Wolfe by the ankle for a roll up. Pope got the win. Angle landed wrong on his arm and was holding it in the mid-mark, looks like he might have broken it.

Now you all know I am vegetarian right? So why do you keep trying to feed me filler? I've told you before filler is for hot dogs not tv shows. You need new writers bad.

Knock Outs.... I don't care. Hey TAZ nothing wrong with being Pasty pale! You have any idea how much sunblock and years indoors it takes to get that pale?
Did I just hear the human cheese right?...Sting building TNA from the ground up? What? Wasn't Styles/Daniels/Sabin/Joe/Shelley there a good 3 years before Sting?

Kevin Nash vs Scott Hall. This was a 5 minute challenge. If Hall lasted 5 minutes in the ring, he won $25,000. He stayed at the far end of the ring for the first 2 minutes. Nash then laid in a knee and a series of forearms knocking Hall to the ropes. Hall came back with a few punches of his own, rocking Nash. Hall followed it up with a few short shoulder blocks. You all forget that Hall has been in JCW for the last few years so he's really not all that ring rusted as you might think. Nash fired back with a hard shoulder block of his own sending Hall to the mat. Picking him up, Nash got Hall into the corner with his trademark knees to the guts before using a series of elbows. Waltman ran into the ring taking out the knee of Nash. Eric Young then ran down for a save. Why the freal is Waltman so vulgar? He was ... you know what Not going to give him the blog time. Hall seems to have won... er still standing so he got the money.

Hernandez vs Beer Money Inc in a handi cap match. Jeff Jarrett as ref. BMI went right for him before the bell even rang, Storm ripping Hernandez's shirt off him as Roode laid in the punches. They put an inverted atomic drop on him, and a high double knee before going for the cover, but it was only a two count. They then switched off with choke holds while the other distracted Jarrett. Hernandez turned it around with a double short clothesline knocking them both down. He then used a shoulder block sending Roode across the ring. He then countered their double team move, sending them both over in an overhead. Hernandez was going for a border toss but ended up with Storm's foot in his face. BMI used their trademark DWI for the win.

Hey Foley while you have the clippers half the X-Division need a haircut!

Another painted up waste of flesh... he said he represents the tattooed? Oh hell no you do NOT represent me.

Abyss was the special enforcer between Styles and the waste of flesh... I really really don't care.

And the MotorCityMachine Guns! Yay! They had a promo. Though they came out in the outfits I thought the other week made them look odd. Mr. Sabin had the microphone, and I must say has really improved with his promo skills. That's worth a full plate of cookies and a cup of coffee. And then Mr. Shelley said they are great... that's funny, I thought you were a god. (to me Mr. Shelley is ) And then a bunch of guys I don't like came out and it was chaos. One of them jumped off the trust and landed on Mr. Shelley, is he okay?

... TNA you are sleeping on the sofa tonight cause you are in the doghouse with me.

Blogging in the kitchen

2010-03-15T11:46:00.004-04:00

Spudgun, I'll be working over on the cooking blog for the next while. Now that the weather is nice I am able to get out of the apartment to get to the grocery and mom's and such to make the recipes and all that fun stuff.

I'll also be posting all the rants I know are coming to do with my oven blowing up.... oh right I didn't tell you about that.... I posted it on the cooking blog.

So, hop over to My Newfie Kitchen for the next few days cause that's where I am going to be for a bit.

I hope to have finished reading My Life In France by Julia Childs this week too, where upon I'll post a review on that blog.
As well, I joined a bunch of internet food groups. So, I want to bring in some fresh readers from those sites.

Don't worry, this weeks TNA will still be posted here. Otherwise .... Bon Appetit

And what about the non-mommy bloggers?

2010-03-15T09:23:00.004-04:00

I saw the article in the New York Times about the mommy bloggers meet up.
I saw some of the bad reactions from the angry mommy bloggers.

Dude, what about the rest of us?

The article made it seem like the only kind of blog out there is the mommy blog. It made it seem like the only women blogging were the ones who used to be CEO and are now just filling time talking about dippers and cashing in their ad-sense.

There is a whole untapped group of us non-mommy bloggers out there.
Don't get me wrong, if you are a stay at home mom who managed to make a name for yourself, great more power to you, like being Diane Keaton in Baby Boom, having it all. Only instead of a boardroom you're using a laptop.

But there are other women bloggers out there.
And I don't see why the mommies are getting all huffy. All press is good press right? Means someone is talking about you; you grabbed someone's attention.

Dishes?

2010-03-14T13:44:00.003-04:00

I have a temper.
I tend to act sometimes without thinking.

I threw out the dishes.

Yes Spudgun, the sink was backed up, and instead of grabbing the bleach and plunger I just grabbed garbage bags and tossed them.

I did end up using the plunger and bleach to clean the clog. I don't have Draino. But now I have to go to the store for more dishes.

Maybe I'll just buy paper plates this time?

If any man ever fell in love with me, he would be very smart to buy me a dishwasher instead of a ring.

Do I Tear You Apart?

2010-03-12T11:35:00.004-05:00

Last December I posted a poem on my gonzo blog. I 'm in the mood to post it here. I wrote it for the hopes a particular male reader would reply. He never did.

DO I TEAR YOU APART?

Locks and keys are made for each other.
Are you the key to my dreams?
Am I the missing piece to yours?
Do I rip you from your own reality when you need it most?
Do you think I should?

Crying in the night only brings misery and headaches.
Do I cause you to weep over the thought of me with someone else?
Did you miss what you thought was your way to me?
Are you anything when I am not beside you?
Do I hold the key to your future?
Do you think I should?

We melt into each person who we are meant to be with.
Have you given yourself over to the idea of me ?
Are you willing to try?
You believe that I am yours body and soul?
Do I hold the key to your future?
Do you think I should?
Do I rip you apart, does it hurt to know we're miles and days away from each other?

Locks and keys are made for each other.
Are you ready to find out if we are a perfect fit?

love always Ardeth Blood

Lighten up Bud

2010-03-12T10:16:00.002-05:00

Time to add some laughter to the blog. I found this on youtube. It's one of my favourite scenes from the movie Blood and Donuts. The second half of it, the bathroom scene

My Thoughts on TNA Impact for March 8 2010

2010-03-10T15:51:00.012-05:00

I used screen capture for this post

iTunes Canada was very late this week, and has it listed for the 11th not the 8th for anyone whom might be going to download it.
This was the big move to Monday nights.

New opening credits..... um... er... *cough cough* Moving on....

We open with Abyss and Hogan.... yeah, um don't mind me, my mind is so not on this as I just found out Corey Haim died which I know has zero to do with TNA but given the fact I compared Alex Shelley's hair to his few weeks ago.... Back to Abyss, dude, that vest looks like you spilled mustard on the back little Tide and it should be good as new. Then big bird came out... sorry my bad that's just A.J. Styles in that ugly ring robe with Ric Flair. Taz is right, I am not proud of this version of Styles, and would someone please tell Styles to loose the damned cuff-links in his ears. Abyss and Styles started it off, with Styles giving a series of kicks to Abyss. He then grabbed Styles and power slammed him in the middle of the ring. Flair tagged in, with a collar tie up and a series of his trade mark chops. Abyss turned it around with some of his own then a large back body drop. Flair used a low blow on him before Styles used the ugly robe to blind Abyss. Hogan came in NOT tagged just wandered into the ring standing on Flairs neck for a few minutes then took a paylay from Styles. Nice. Heels up, Faces down and in comes.... crap. Sting came in for what everyone thought was a save but yay Heel turn. I just said yay to Sting, and I am so NOT a fan of his. Bats and chairs and blood oh my. Are we off to see the wizard now?

Um... AUDIO!!!! MIC CHECK IN THE IMPACTZONE... were none of the mics working proper everyone sounded hollow. And I see Styles has taken up his ventriloquist routine again as he was standing with Flair during the promo "silently" reciting Flair's speech. Busted!

Kaz was in the ring looking .... um maybe you should put the Suicide mask back... okay tell me the truth, is he or is he not Antonio Banderas' stunt double?
Finally, someone is saying something worth listening to, as he was talking about the X-Division being the way to be. Then Curry Man... oh my bad again, Fallen Angel Daniels came out to the ring. Then Doug Williams came out who by the by is the X-Division champ for the moment. I still think that belt belongs on Alex Shelley but that's just me. ohhh lovely, a 3 way X-match.
Daniels went for a roll up on Williams but Kaz broke it up, going for one of his own, which was broken up by Williams who went for one. Daniels was going for the angel's wings on Williams, but Kaz tried to stop him, getting a back body drop for his troubles. Kaz then gave Daniels a series of punches before turning his attention to Williams. Williams used a flying forearm to get Kaz off his feet, following with a round of upper cuts. Kaz had a roll up on Williams but Daniels went to break the hold getting caught in a northern lights suplex. Daniels then in the corner, Kaz with a float over that landed him right into the set up for a suplex but it was cleverly turning into what looked like a double team move, which Kaz countered sending both of them out side of the ring. Kaz then used a suicide dive knocking them both down. Daniels then got thrown into the ring post, as Williams rolled back into the ring. Back in the ring, Williams and Kaz, Williams used a knee lift on Kaz in the corner but only got a two count. Kaz then countered with a jawbreaker before Daniels got back into the ring, with a slingshot leg drop on Kaz and a running clothesline on Williams. Daniels followed it with a BME on Kaz but only for a two count. Daniels then used a running forearm in the corner followed by a large death valley driver on Kaz for another near fall. Williams back in the ring now trading short clotheslines with Daniels while Kaz came off the top rope with a double drop kick. He then ran havoc on both men getting another near fall on Daniels. Kaz gave an inverted atomic drop on Daniels following it with a boot to the skull and a spinning neck breaker. Williams, who had been kept out of the ring for the last few minutes ran in using his chaos theory suplex on Daniels for the win.

Shannon Moore? you have got to be kidding me... how did he get a X-Division title shot at the ppv next week? That blows goat

Knock Outs match.... I don't care.

Promo for Pope, dude still waiting for someone in the X-Division to grab me that wicked trenchcoat of yours... well then Wolfe ran into him literally with a chain and cuffs.

Sting vs RVD! no way.... and somehow the crowd in the front row knew before even Sting did, how is that possible? Oh right, someone read the script... er production notes. RVD used a 5star frogsplash and the rolling thunder for the win. NICE! SWEET!

Then Eric Yummy... er um Eric Young came out to the ring... he's still on my Canadian Celebrities I'd love to meet list. And Bishoff told Young to "slap that punk up side his bitch ass" in regards to Waltman. Okay, were you watching Big Money Hustlas before the show? Just think it's funny to hear a middle aged white man say things like that.

Handi cap match between Jeff Jarrett and Beer Money Inc. They jumped Jarrett backstage, then dragged him to the ring continuing the beat down. Roode had Jarrett in the corner with a series of fists. Jarrett fought out of it with a boot to the face and a running clothesline. Then used a drop toe hold on Storm before Roode caught him in mid move power slamming him. They then used a double team DDT on him, following it with an eye of the storm. Jarrett turned it around with a large back body drop on Roode. He tossed both men out of the ring. Foley was the ref in this, and handed Jarrett the barbed wire bat which did not get used, as a second ref came out to call the win. BMI used their DUI for the pin.

Christ I'm bored, I might have to do some housework to liven things up around here. And where the hell were the MotorCityMachine Guns! ?

Program note next week TNA has 3 hours. The show and Epics. I will try to do a review on Epics but it's not available on iTunes Canada at this point, and sometimes websites uploads don't work in Canada.

Corey Haim RIP

2010-03-10T14:30:00.003-05:00

I got home about an hour ago, and went to check my emails. The first thing I see is Corey Haim dead at 38.

I have been crying off and on ever since.

One of my favourite actors growing up. The fact he was only 2 years older then me was part of the shock. I was sitting here, thinking, "dude, I just mentioned him in a review post few weeks ago."

Dance Baby Dance

2010-03-08T19:25:00.002-05:00

Found this on youtube. How can you be in a bad mood after watching this?

Let me tell you about me

2010-03-08T17:01:00.008-05:00

I was just having a chat with Buddy #P and the topic turned to photos. I have only ever seen a photo of him once over a year ago and it was not the greatest.
I just saw one new one of him. Buddy #P does not have a good self image.

He had visited one of my websites the other day and said he really like one photo I have up.
Cool.

I've talked more then once about how I view myself. I believe I am realistic in my self image. But it took alot to get to this point.
Most women when you talk to them, will have the same comment, that the older they got the better they viewed themselves. That's so true of me.

You read on this blog me asking what is wrong with me, and the next day I'm telling you how adored I am by the X-Division. The truth of the matter is somewhere in between. As I am sure it is for everyone.
This is a blog. A mirror to hold up to ourselves at later points in life. Some days are rocking others not so much. I know my self esteem is mirrored back at me that way. Think about it, yours most likely is too.

Where are you going with this?

I always felt like I was nothing. Frankenstein's monster. Well, give me some neck bolts then. I embraced it and smile. Smiling, laughing and just enjoying the idea that someone at some point will look at me and say "You're such an Addams" cause honey, Lily Munster ain't got nothing on me.
Dude, I'm push another decade soon (36 in 2 weeks) I have no time for self doubt.

The Pages Cards

2010-03-08T14:18:00.004-05:00

The Pages are the first sets of the Court cards.
Strange creatures these ones.

They tend to represent messages and learning, innocence and childishness.
Depending on which Page pops up, the situation surrounding the kind of message will differ.

For example, the Page of Cups usually represents a birth, where as the Page of Swords can uncover a spy.

So I am jammering on about this because the pages are haunting me, or taunting me depending on how you want to look at it. For the last week, the pages; all 4 of them (cups, pentacles, swords and wands) have been slamming me in my readings.
Well, I suppose that's no real surprise given I am a writer and am having communications with my editor right now.
I've also been doing some self realization work, with the Soulmate Secret and the Law of Attraction. The pages could be screaming at me from that point of view.

The planets are also at this time shifting, as are the seasons. The pages might be picking up on the movement astrologically speaking. (I have no idea what planet matches up with what card.)

Well the sex is good

2010-03-08T09:00:00.004-05:00

I got some of the chapters back from my editor. I'm noticing a pattern with my work.
Everything gets some red ink except for the sex scenes.

Are the editors/publishers just not wanting to read those scenes?
Worse, are they boring?
Are they hard to swallow?

It can't possibly be I am a better writer then even I believe... is it?

Actually, in this case, I think the sex scenes are very readable. Not too over the top, not too in your face. One of the most difficult things to write is a sex scene. You have to know how much emotion you want to covey with it. Do you want your characters to walk away from it unscathed or do you want them to reach a turning point?

Sex is used so differently by everyone. Not just in books.

But it's Spudgun

2010-03-07T21:32:00.002-05:00

Found a clip from Bottom on youtube with the character Spudgun. I thought it was funny.

Cheap Skywriting

2010-03-07T09:17:00.013-05:00

Communication.

It seems to be the topic de jour.

I'm sitting here listening to my Artificial Joy Club cd Melt, with the song Skywriting on repeat.
My favourite track on the album. And it got me thinking about some of my poetry. I ended up going through some of my scrapbooks looking for a few pieces I did back when I was still with Trainwreck. My most creative time for poetry actually.
Most of which I have forgotten about. Why, well because they are all about him. Yeah, I am that cliched and pathetic. When I am in a relationship or have a crush, I communicate to the guy by making him the center of my art.

Not on purpose.

No shocker there eh? as my blog is living proof of that fact.

Also no shocker that men and women communicate differently. Take for example, I had done a drawing of Trainwreck and photographed it. I gave him the photograph of the drawing. He tossed it into the glove compartment of his truck and did not even acknowledge it. I was crushed for days. Then one night at the bar when he was djing, he rigged the door prize of the night for me to win. I was insulted.
Our communication styles were so different. I think in art and he thought in money.

I think that's why so many women are drawn to romance novels/movies. It's the idea of the grand gesture.

What made Percy Bysshe Shelley such hot dren? You know, I have read his poetry and I find it lack luster. But yet, he was considered, and still is considered, one of the greatest poets ever.
It was part of what seduced Mary Shelley. No surprise when you think about it either, that both of their most popular works shared the same title. Frankenstein or the Modern Prometheus and her husband's Prometheus Unbound .

I'm still searching for that kind of creative connection. But the message seems to disappear just when I think I have found that soul collaborator.

Can you share such a deep intimacy like that without falling in love? When someone opens the floodgates of creativity in you, what do you do when they close the door?
I think Mary Shelley got off lucky. Percy died on her. She lived her whole life knowing he was the One, knowing she had been his soulmate, his muse. There are some of us who still have to turn the corner down the street and hold our breath that we do not bump into our ex.

Least you step in that dog dren again and the stink never comes off.

We have come along way since the days of Mr. and Mrs. Percy Shelley. Maybe too far. Not only do we have a million ways to decode the communications we developed, we have just as many ways to block out the noise.
Men see a caller id and choose not to answer. They text cause it is less stress for them then actually picking up the phone. Webcamming has replaced a walk as a first date.
All this makes the face to face time that much more confusing when we do get there.

I guess it's time we got back to saying what we mean and meaning what we say.

Another song on the Melt cd has a line that goes "I say what I feel it gets me into trouble I feel what I say "

Miscommunication or what?

Because of my fears

2010-03-07T01:03:00.008-05:00

This became an interesting night.

Because of my extreme fears of rejection in every form, and therefore my inability to do something as simple as send an email to Mr. Shelley; I ended up in a 4 hour conversation with Buddy #P about men and women and who should make the first move.

Even with all the society breakdowns we have, there is still a stigma on a woman making any kind of first move. Yeah, even one my age.
Worse if you are not on the same level as the man. As in, not as good looking or wealthy.

My buddy said and I am quoting him "Screw that. Go for it."
I laughed then panicked some more.

One of my favourite quotes is from Trading Up by Candace Bushnell "A woman is limited by the men that desire her."
It does not say anything about a man being limited. You choose us, we do not choose you.

Pencil that in between

2010-03-06T21:38:00.009-05:00

I just had two people tell me to send a letter to Mr. Shelley.
To stop being a total wimp and just message him already.

I'll get right on that, pencil it in between having my brain eaten by zombies and .... well you can't do much after having your brains eaten by zombies.

What good would that do? He's read the blog; I'm sure. He knows the score. I've embarrassed myself enough as it is.

And besides, what the hell would I say? "You're so frealing hot"
He's looked in a mirror he knows it already, and it's written all over this damned blog already.

I'm at the point where it's just a case of "I want to cut off her head and drive a stake through her heart."
Fear. It's a powerful thing. Fear of being laughed at, fear of being feared.

Being viewed as creepy on this blog is one thing, it's my blog. I just open my mouth and let the thoughts hit the page in a splatter punk of colour.
Messaging him would be a totally different level of creep factor.

Besides, what would I do if he actually replied back?

Play Nice

2010-03-06T01:11:00.001-05:00

I used screen capture for this post

What's going on there?

Now that is how you can tell Mr. Shelley's comfortable in the ring Eh? Maybe he was dizzy from lack of food?

Seriously now, is he tired or not feeling well?

I know this was after the match, but the camera did not stay on the MotorCityMachine Guns! like it could have. Instead the camera was jumping around between them and Beer Money Inc. so we missed alot of what they were trying to convey to the crowd. But I got the impression that creative are itching to split a rift here. If you read my review for this week's show (March 4th 2010 episode) then you know I made the comment asking if Mr. Shelley reads the production notes before hand because he's reactions to things are very very believable. Almost as if he really does not know what is in store for him.
What does creative have up their sleeve for the MMG? Gold I hope.

I have said this before on here, and to anyone who will listen to me for five minutes; Alex Shelley is the greatest pure wrestler around. Maybe even in the last 15 years.

Like so many people, I tuned into Spike tv back in the fall of 2005 to check out the "new wrestling show" that was TNA, and was hooked within minutes. Part because it was truly a new wrestling show and not the same old brainless brawls/gimmicks, but I continued to watch because of Mr. Shelley. His talent has only gotten better over the last few years. His timing is perfect, his movements in the ring flawless, and he makes everyone else in the match look good.
I've compared him to a dancer, a god, and a vampire. He's that captivating. Yes I know I'm getting a bit creepy again with the romanticizing of the man, but try and argue with me on this, you just can't. Why is there no gold on this man's waist?
He should have the X-Division belt again.

My Thoughts on TNA Impact for March 4th 2010

2010-03-05T16:30:00.024-05:00

I used screen capture for this post

iTunes Canada had it for download at a decent time this week.

They opened with a reminder that next week is the big move to Monday nights. I'll have some thoughts on that topic in a post all it's own later this weekend.

I'm watching this dren that is your filler and I can't help but hope there is going to be a big swerve by Styles soon. Please please please let A.J. Styles dump Flair. Please.

Back to raping Shakespeare this time they only went back a few years in scripts. Yeah, I know you had Eric Young do the cleaning of the toilets gimmick around 2006....

Yeah, this lead to Jeff Jarrett being in a falls count anywhere match against the creepy sex guy. In the men's room. I don't know if I want to touch that one. Morley was just tossing Jarrett from one end of the bathroom to the other. that sounds so wrong and it looked like Jarrett took a shoulder hit a little too hard. Morley pinned him for the win. yeah, um I found that nearly disturbing and oddly reminded me of the video Raspberry by I Mother Earth. It also reminds me of the bathroom scene you all did back in 2006 with Nash/Shelley/Aries...which was a hell of a lot funnier.
Second match for Jarrett was against Tomko. It started with a collar tie up and a side head lock on Jarrett which went smoothly into an off the ropes shoulder block by Tomko. He continued to work on the left shoulder of Jarrett, there was a small cut on Jarrett's face too by the by. Jarrett did manage to turn it around getting Tomko on the ropes, but it didn't last long, as Tomko used a running closeline. He got a two count with a flying armbar takedown, but Jarrett got a DDT on him. Jarrett then used a roll up for the win.

Doug Williams vs Rob Terry. Both guys got in each others face before the bell, then Rob Terry walked the length of the ring with Williams over head before slamming him down. He then slapped a bear hug on him, Williams got out of it for a few seconds, but was caught with a jumping leg larria. He then put a choke slam on him for the win.

Mr. Anderson... leave the comedy routines to the MMG and JB.

Anyone else find Hogan touching Abyss's arm a bit on the creepy sexual side? That was just a little too much.... I feel like I am watching a cult leader or something.

And no cookies this week for the editing crew. None. You did not need to have so many flashbacks.

Four corners match. Styles vs Wolfe vs Pope vs Abyss for the belt. Scheduled for one fall with a 30 minute time limit and we have 11 minutes on the show how does that work? Just when I thought Styles fashion sense could not get any worse he proved me wrong with that ugly robe. I really hope between now and Monday that A.J. looses that frealing robe in traffic or something that is just ugly. Pope and Styles started it off, with a high knee from Styles and a series of chops. Pope turned it around quick with a short shoulder block knocking Styles to the mat. Abyss and Wolfe tagged in. Wolfe tried a sunset flip but Abyss sat on him instead. Styles jumped in, but Abyss got them both with short closelines. Abyss then put a sideslam on Wolfe for a near fall, but Styles broke the pin. All four men in the ring now, and Styles and Wolf got tossed out. Back in the ring, Styles and Pope, the Pope down with Styles laying on the fists. Styles took the leg out from under Pope with Flair using a chair on him. Styles then put the figure four on him. The ref called it, giving the win to Styles. but um... there were two other guys in this match why did they not break the submission?

And the MotorCityMachine Guns! vs Generation Me vs Beer Money Inc vs Hernandez/Matt Morgan the evil druid. Chris Sabin and Jeremy started it off, with an armbar that Jeremy countered. Sabin countered right back then tagged in Alex Shelley where upon they used three double team moves in about 30 seconds. Shelley went for a cover but only got a two count. Jeremy turned it around again with another armbar then tagged in Max who used a moonsault to get into the ring and land on Shelley's shoulder. Another quick tag to Jeremy who did a double stomp on Shelley's arm before Shelley was able to tag in Sabin. They used a double team move off the second ropes on Sabin -a modified swingset- and went for a pin but Shelley broke it up giving Hernandez a chance to blindtag himself in. He then grabbed Max and power pressed him a few times before just dropping him over his shoulders to land hard in the middle of the ring. Morgan then tagged himself in who then got both members of Generation Me in a double choke and a boot to the face of James Storm before, Roode tagged himself in and got the roll up for the win. I wanna know, does Mr. Shelley read the production notes (I really don't want to say script) before hand, cause his reactions are amazingly vivid. It's like he's reacting as a fan would.

The Canadian Wants to Know

2010-03-05T10:26:00.006-05:00

What do you feel defines YOUR culture?

Give me a book or a band or a movie or a product that you feel strongly represents your culture and tell me why.

The reason behind this challenge is this brilliant documentary that came out couple of years ago. Douglas Coupland created this piece of living art by using iconic Canadian items. It went over brilliantly here in Canada, and not so well over seas, simply because the cultural status did not translate well.
So, let me know what you think defines your culture.

Before Monday...

2010-03-04T09:01:00.006-05:00

I used screen capture for this post

Back to the ring.
Yeah, I know I said I would back away from talking way too much about TNA's MotorCityMachine Guns! like some sick teenager, but you know me. I'm like a dog with a bone.
And they're my favourite topic, and they're your favourite of my topics, and you know they are just so damn hot.
Besides, I need something to distract me from the mess my real life has become.

Okay, so this coming Monday marks the move for TNA Impact. How do we feel about this?
Well, this is the laundry list of what I would like to see happen

I also think Eric Young deserves a title shot.

I would like to also point you to this here cause I think it's a pressing issue, but then again that is just me. Anything that has to do with Alex Shelley having more air time is a pressing issue to me.

As far as raping Shakespeare (reusing old script ideas from a decade ago) nothing really grabs me, other then ... bring in a boy band gimmick hahahahahaha It's funny. To me.

I was a big Steve Corino fan back in the day of ECW, if he's still wrestling, I would love to see him pop up.
I also happen to dig Trent Acid...

The other company, all seem to be worried over who the "face of the company" is. This makes me wonder, who is the face of TNA? And what makes one wrestler better then another to be considered the "face of the company"? It's more then talent, it's more then looks. It's more then ego, and it's more then the amount of fans they have.
Well, you know where my vote goes on this topic.

But you know what would make alot of fans happy... oh sshh you were thinking it too.

How do i keep my voice?

2010-03-03T22:41:00.004-05:00

Got the first round of notes on the first draft from my editor.
Um...er...

She's changed the way my female character comes across. How do I continue to work with my editor and not loose the soul of my characters?

This is only the first draft, how can I bring across the story I need to tell if my character's core identity is being shifted? I don't know if I can keep my cool on this.

You all know me, I have a temper for starters, and I have a do it 100% with passion or not at all attitude. I have been living with these characters now for over a year, and not sure I can let anyone else fiddle with them.

Poke Poke Poke the freak

2010-03-02T21:33:00.005-05:00

You have heard me say more then once that I have Osteogenesis Imperfecta Type 1

I have been the favorite freak of nature for every frealing medical student who's ever come through this damnable town. Today was no different.

You also remember me saying I was suppose to have gone to the Neurologist back few weeks ago for a follow up from the MRI. That appointment got moved to today.
So there I was, sitting in the clinic staring at the computer screen with the MRI results and when the Neurologist realized I have O.I. he did what every frealing medical personal has done in the last 35 years, got in my face to stare at my eyes. Literally, this dude was nose to nose dragging my bottom eyelids down all giddy like I was the latest Cabbage Patch Doll or something. I was starting to feel like Alex from Clockwork Orange in the torture scene, just waiting for the sounds of Beethoven to come screaming out of the woodwork.

Yes, my sclera (whites of the eyes) are blue. Robin's egg blue. The bluer the sclera the more broken I am. OOOHHHHH Let's all run pointless tests on the human eggshell.
Both my mom and my sister have this. It's genetic. Why am I the only one being poked and bleed out like a lab rat?

Jesus I am going to start charging admission soon. I'm sure they had fun after I left, pouring over my medical records. God knows my x-rays read like a medical journal themselves.
You know, when I was 5 or 6 years old, it was cool being the center of attention like that. Now, I just want you to tell me what the hell is broken this time and what pain pills to take for it.

Seems I have cursed myself

2010-03-01T18:59:00.001-05:00

You need to read this post first

Okay, now you have heard me say a million times that I believe in soulmates and that I am doing the Soulmate Secret by Arielle Ford. You have also heard me say a million times that I am a Pagan.
(hopeless romantic + practicing spellcaster who's main God/Goddess are Love/Sex God/Goddess + thinks the big puffy white a waste of time = crap I'm screwed) Well, you know how every other normal average woman on the face of the planet puts years and years and years of energy into the big puffy white layer cake and dress. Seems because I have not, I have unknowingly blocked and sabotaged myself.

NOW YOU TELL ME??????

Yeah, it would seem so. The Law of Attraction baby, the Law of Attraction. Because I have never seen myself having a "wedding day" and therefore never so much as ever even bought one damned bridal magazine, therefore never putting any energy into it, I've condemned myself to never getting married. I have never even been to a wedding

Can this be fixed?

Maybe, maybe not. Might be too late. Remember back in high school, having family planning class or home ec or whatever it's called now, well in grade 12 we had to do a wedding planning thingie. I just was not interested at all in any of it. I failed the project. I got 41% out of 100. I know this because this afternoon while I was hunting for something in the mess that is my apartment, I stumbled upon the project. Yeah no joke, I still have papers from 1991 sitting around in boxes. I'm a pack rat.

I still see nothing wrong with the drive-thru-wedding chapel. Nothing wrong with it at all.
Being Pagan, if I were to ever end up finding a guy who was willing to spend the rest of his life with me, I would be content with a handfasting. For those of you that don't know what that is, it's a marriage type ritual done by the High Priestess or High Priest. Every Alternative Religion has a version of it. And what was the point of my post I got off track again

I think it had something to do with the Law of Attraction and basic wish magick.

Yes of course Spudgun, she says a day later. Because I have not ever pictured myself having a big puffy white wasted day... er um wedding, and not put the energy into creating the perfect "day", I have unknowingly set up a huge roadblock to ever meeting my soulmate and having a happily ever after. That means, I can try to put some energy into creating that imaginary "special day" and hope it's enough to turn around my bad mojo.

See, I really do not have the bride gene. It's like the lead character in the movie Cake played by Heather Graham, she is very anti-wedding and ends up having to run her parents bridal magazine. Her attitude is why do the big party when you can just live together.

Okay people, lets' see if I can honestly turn my attitude towards weddings around enough to bring some positive energy to the situation. Like I said, I only have to believe enough to turn the bad luck around... right?

Torn Covers

2010-02-28T16:24:00.007-05:00

I used screen capture for this post

So my novel is sitting in the hands of my editor. This is great, means I am that much closer to being published.
But it means I have some time to stress over the cover art now. The photographer I was talking to couple of months ago backed out. Yeah I know, I suck or something.
Anyway, that means I still have to find a solution for the cover.

I have been looking at iStockphoto the last few days but I haven't found anything that captures the spirit of what I want my book to say at first glance.

One thing is certain, it has to be black and white. That is the real deal breaker.
I would like someone who looks halfway like my lead character, simply because it is a romance. But because I am not under any contracts with any of the romance publishers, I do not have any requirements. I can be as different from the typical romance covers out there.

Too bad there are not any guys in this city to model who look like this.

Why is it so bright in here?

2010-02-28T14:19:00.006-05:00

I finally figured out how to rotate the damned photos from webcam. Yeah... I'm cool now.

And the light... I finally opened the windows. See, you can see just how pale I am. Well, sort of see.

What was the whole point of this? I was bored, and tired of my hair not doing what it was suppose to so I hacked it off again. I do that. Get upset and chop all my hair off. I would shave it completely, but even I am not that brave.

So, yeah. This is me this lovely Sunday afternoon, once again without any makeup and the same old sweater that I've been living in for the last 3 months.

My Thoughts on TNA Impact for Feb 25th 2010

2010-02-26T19:43:00.017-05:00

I used screen capture for this post

iTunes Canada .... it was supper time before it was ready for download.

And Abyss was showing the rest of the X-Division the magick LSD... Which of course had no effect on Jay Lethal cause he's got them there shades that takes up half his face... And then A.J Styles came down to the ring with the damned cuff links in his ears again/still. 3 minutes into the show and I see where this column is going tonight already. Styles you are making this too easy for me tonight, you are saying Flair's old gimmick of if you want to be the man you have to beat the man, well I am guessing the last guy you beat for those earrings was Liberace. Then Abyss came down and they had to cut the camera angle because even he was laughing at the end of the promo.... I'm bored.

17 minute mark and our first match is Nasty Boys vs Team 3 D in a tables match. You know, the mood I am in right now.... Team 3D won with the help of Jesse Neal by putting Sags through a table.

Knock Outs match. ODB vs Daffney. I caught that! ODB came down to the ring making a gesture that her implants are fixed. No not braking the rule... ODB won by a dq. This is the second week in a row Daffney has been dqed.

Wow 45 minute mark and we've only had 2 matches. (remember the way I get the show there is no commercials)The quality of the show has gone down hill in the last 2 months. If I wanted to watch a talk show I would watch Oprah.

Oh my god! a match! and we're only 50 minutes (commercial free time line) into the show. Got alittle excited there and then I saw it was just Brian Kendrick. He's got the crappiest music ever. Put you to sleep that does. He went up against Kaz. They started with a wristlock, Kendrick kicking the under part of Kaz's shoulder. Kaz turned it around, forcing Kendrick to the mat. I really do not want to see Kendrick's butt, lest it's the better side of him. Kendrick managed to turn it in his favour with his free elbow to the side of Kaz's face before Kaz used the second rope for a wicked spin which lead to a deep armdrag/hip toss. Kaz then used a scoop slam followed by a jumping leg drop from outside -into the ring. Nice. Kaz followed up with a running double leg drop to the chest of Kendrick. Kendrick tried to use a roll up but got nowhere with it. Quickly, Kendrick used a fakeout -going for what looked like a neck breaker but turned it into a jawbreaker over his knee. Kendrick went for a high risk move but was kicked upside the skull. Kaz then used a wicked looking clutch-capasitor for the win.

Match #4 is for the Global Championship. Rob Terry vs Mr. Anderson. Christ Rob Terry's creepy. Mr. Anderson got hit with a chair before the match, and Rob Terry won by default after knocking the poor camera man who got too close. See I'm not the only one who thinks Rob Terry is useless, creative knows he can't wrestle and had to come up with a why for him to win over Mr. Anderson.

Wonder if he reads my cooking blog or just agrees with me that Alex Shelley needs to eat more?

Oh my god! another match! I'm excited are you excited.... Wolfe vs Abyss. How can you have a 20minute time limit for a match when there is only 9minutes left to the show? Abyss threw him across the ring, but Wolfe came back on the attack with a kick, getting Abyss down to the mat. Getting back to his feet, Abyss crushed Wolfe twice in the corner. Wolfe tried more then once to get Abyss off his feet, but could not. He got caught in the blackhole slam, giving Abyss the win.

It was good to see some promos this week. Let me point you to what I noticed the other day about promos ... You can follow the link or you know I can say The last promo the MotorCityMachine Guns! did was the DEC 17th 2009 episode. But follow the link if you want to see screen shots of the MMG

666 Posts

2010-02-26T08:00:00.000-05:00

Whoo Hoo!
I have hit 666 posts on this blog!

Wicked.

How do I want to celebrate this post? Well, I could go into a whole thing on the number 9. (6+6+6=18=9) Or chat about the Lovers card in Tarot. Or I could talk about the movie the Omen.
But, not only have I done all that on other sites, that is what would be expected in reference to the number 666.

I can't do what you would expect. And I can't go on and chat about Mr. Shelley or Mr. Sabin in this post either, cause that is what my regular Spudguns would expect.

How can I celebrate having reached 666 blog posts without doing what you would all expect from me?

I know, we'll dance! (I found this on youtube )

Any more talk like that and I will put the leeches on you

2010-02-25T20:01:00.011-05:00

I have no idea where I am going with this post.
I have been having a few weird conversations last few days with my straight male friends.

Arguing with one over wrestling.
Listening to another belittle himself.

Negative negative negative. Everyone and their dog's grandmother has told me to stop thinking in such downer terms. Well that is alittle difficult when the two men I talk to the most are making me want to punch a wall.

It took me a really long time to get over myself as far as my looks go. I know I am not Elvira here but everyone is attractive to someone.
So, had a guy tell me few days ago that I'm sexy. I had no idea how to respond to that. No that is a lie, I did know how to respond, I asked him what kind of drugs he was on. That my Spudgun is my automatic reaction to a compliment.
He said none and for me to deal with the fact he's attracted to me. Okay he literally had me speechless. Yes I know me speechless. Locked somewhere between crying and laughing at him.
It was over the internet so you know, I was able to take a few minutes of silence and just process the information.
It doesn't mean anything, I am still single. But I have to admit, I loved hearing him say it. And that then led to us talking about wrestling; everything leads to me talking about wrestling have you not figured that out yet? And just like that fight.

So then my other friend, he's going through a rough time. He hates himself something terrible. Nothing I say to him can get him to believe that he's a decent enough guy. Another internet friend so not much else I can do but listen to him bitch. And since he wont' take mine or anyone else's advice, there is nothing left to say.
But he's just so damn depressing.
No really. He makes me look like Loonette from that kids show Big Comfy Couch you know totally sunshine and sweetness in an overly exaggerated way.

This is why I blog. So that I don't go crazy, in a real I'm going to take a full bottle of sleeping pills with vodka way. Not that I would, as I don't like vodka and no man is ever worth killing yourself for... not even your favourite tag team. Sorry Mr. Sabin and Mr. Shelley

The Book Blog Needs Some Love People

2010-02-25T08:37:00.004-05:00

Let me point you all to my book blog and the interview I did last month with Catherine Mckenzie, author of Spin.

It was a great interview, it is a great hip book and if you are in Canada, there is still a chance to win a copy.

I won't be updating that blog till after next week when the contest closes.

Waiting to hear back from the Editor

2010-02-24T18:10:00.004-05:00

Yes folks, I am a mess today waiting to hear back from my fabulous new editor on my novels first draft.

I have only worked with an editor before as far as changing my Canadian spelling to American spelling. And those were just one page articles.
This is the first time I have actually had anything at stake.

Nerve racking.

This is an entire world made up of people and places I created from nothing. Will they be okay? Will they return to me bleeding from red ink wounds? Will the Editor tell me I'm complete shit and that I should just shoot myself now?

I'm not sure I want to know. I like my reality the way I like my tag teams. In a non-real, semi-celebrity form.

What defines you?

2010-02-24T15:38:00.005-05:00

I am sitting here, with the movie Motherhood on with commentary cause I am a commentary junkie. Watched it proper yesterday.
And if you have not been to the official movie website you should, it's a mock mommy blog. Only it's not totally made up, some of it is from real mommy blogs.

And that brings me to the title of this post.
What defines you?

I am NOT a mommy and this is anything but a mommy blog. Which 90% of blogs out there are.
Most blogs fall into a few classifications, mommy blog (or the sudden new daddy blogs) cooking blogs, review blogs, hobby blogs, religion blogs.
The rest of us are personal blogs.

Where you fit?

Few weeks ago, I asked Buddy #P if he thought I could do a fake mommy blog. Long story as to why the topic was brought up. He said go for it.
You know what, 30 minutes later not only was I realizing there was no way I could -as one needs photos of the "kids" and things like that for a mommy blog- I was down right bored with the idea.

30 minutes after thinking about doing a mommy blog and the idea was no longer interesting. This is why I am not a mommy. I could never commit to something or someone outside of myself like that.
Another reason I do not have a husband and at this rate never will.

Movies that freaked you out

2010-02-24T13:01:00.005-05:00

Was talking with Erin awhile back about movies that we thought might be too heavy for her fourteen year old daughter (my Niece) to watch.

Kids see so much these days that not much really gets to them these days.
But we all agreed (me, Erin, her husband,) that one movie still gets under our skin and we're all old. Besides the Exorcist that is, cause I think that still makes alot of people uncomfortable.

What we still find creepy - and let me make certain you know what we differ as creepy from scary, Exorcist of Emily Rose or Childs Play = scary.
Dark Crystal = creepy.

Yeah. The Dark Crystal still gives all three of us the wiggins. And her husband in his forties.

Think about it, I feel sorry for anyone who is the child or wife of anyone in the props department of that movie. Imagine coming home one day and seeing a giant Skeksis in the corner of the living room. Their horrible bony and leathered faces and wide buggy eyes peering down at you in suspended animation for all eternity, their puppet strings dangling like raw veins. Just creeps me out thinking of it.

HHHHHMMMMMMMMMMMM

I'm just not that into you

2010-02-24T08:37:00.001-05:00

I am sitting here watching the movie "He's Just Not That Into You" and thinking.
Which is never good. Me thinking always leads to crying and panic. But anyway, at the point where, I am just kind of half way taking in the points of the movie and going over the past week.

Relationship wise.

And I finally figured it out.
There has yet to be any one guy that has impressed me. None of the guys on any of the dating sites I have tried over the last few years, and I think I officially have tried all the dating sites, have ever impressed me.

I got messaged by an above average looking guy and was like "um no thanks". I don't think this guy has ever been told no before. He just didn't do anything for me. Meanwhile, I have been having a lovely chat with another guy on there who seems very down to earth and moderately good looking, but we're not compatible, and we both know this. We have both said to the other we would not be compatible in the long haul.

I suppose I am asking, or making the comment of, if no one ever does it for you, if you can say to pretty much everyone that I'm just not that into you, is it possible that I am just not relationship material?
In which case I will be doomed to random and rare one night stands that are as bad as greasy chinese food for the rest of my life, but I suppose it's better then dementing my mind over a guy who I don't see a real future with.